Please stop the time
Come back
Tell me it was a lie
Come back
Kiss me again
Come back
Save this heart that you have slain

My heart feels like it crumbling
Come back
Make it sing again
Come back
Let it know that it'll be fine again
Come back
Assure me that I'll see the sun shine
Again!!

(Kathmandu, Nepal 5/15/2014)

I finally believe in god
I'm praying for his grace
I would die if i couldn't have you
Although I know it's cliched
I want to tell you my heart beats your name
My breath only lasts as long as I see your face
But I'm scared
A thousand other boys must have told you that
That you mean the world to them
But the world has lost its meaning
All the world is right now
Is one text saying good night
To know that you really care
One smile when I'm with you
Or your voice that overshadows music
You are my music
Touching the deepest corner of my soul
And I want to write you a song
But the words don't come out
And my voice disappears
'I love you'
Every inch of you
Every thought, every breath,
Ever sound you make
Your thought and your dreams
I'd die to know
If you feel the same
I'd be in heaven if we kissed

your heart's been asking you to follow it
it says forget the light
forget the darkness
define yourself in her
her eyes and  her breath
the soul that grabs your hands
pulls you into yourself
the sun fades away
all the warmth the world needs
is in her
no life
no death
all you really need is her
the idea of her
her perfect self
bringing out the perfect you
the women you've had so far
suddenly become dust
and she becomes the universe
your satan
your god
your only salvation
your life
your existence
simply,
her.

(Kathmandu 4/11/2013... in love)

You weren’t just a lover
You were the one
A reflection of my entire existence
In the most enigmatic eyes
A purpose
The purpose
Not an answer
Not a question
Just you
In your form
The best one
The only one
My absolute life
Yet now a memory
A dream like last night’s
A worry stricken mind
Realizing it has nothing
Just emptiness the next morning
I hope you are ok……..

(Kathmandu, Nepal 02/06/2013)

If I told you I wrote this poem for you
Would you start loving me?
Craving me the way I crave you
Go insane
Live in a world where nothing else exists
Do everything to make me understand
Fail but keep trying
If I told you I wrote this poem for you
Would you instantly run into my arms?
Kiss my lips and stare at the stars
Forget the world
Forget yourself
Yet somehow remember
What I was wearing the first day we met
If I told you I wrote this poem for you
Would you spend your days thinking about me?
Coming up with excuses just to see my face
Go to the same coffee shop
Hoping for me to show up
Note down ‘Spiced latte, no sugar’
Just so if the day comes
You know what I would order
If I told you I wrote this poem for you
Would you start dreaming of the future?
A small chapel by the sea
Gathered friends and family
Vows and bells
Our kid’s show and tell
A family portrait hung on the wall
If I told you I wrote this poem for you
Would you be mine forever?
Let me die in your arms
Happy and loved
If you would
Then my love
I wrote this poem for you

(Kathmandu, Nepal 12/22/2013)

When my mind feels like someone else's
When my brain ceases to think
When my thoughts only lead me towards the end of the tunnel
Where I see everything else but a light
That's when the bottle comes out
It listens to me without interrupting
It understands that I don't need to be happy
I just need to not be sad

(Kathmandu, Nepal  11/22/13)

I write
Because it's the only sanity I know
I lost my mind a long time ago
Between the heartbreaks and one night stands
Somewhere in those drunken nights
I've been trying to find myself
With a drug induced consciousness
And alcohol infused serenity
And the words
The words that forever battle in my head
To just come out raw
The way they are
No sweetness added
Unrefined thoughts
Like **** the world, **** humanity
**** everyone
But then I take a deep breath
Regather my thoughts
Add a little sweetness to it
Then my mind comes up with words
But they're not mine
I lost my mind a long time ago
Back when I was taught to deal with good people
When in reality I was surrounded by none
When I was taught to succeed in life
But not how to deal with failure
About love and happiness
But never about heartbreak and distress
I write
To teach myself
Experiences that I was never taught
Love that I found and lost
To find the sanity that I misplaced
While figuring out the curve ***** life threw at me
When time took away everything that was offered to me
I write
To feel again
What it was like to be me.

(Kathmandu, Nepal 10/15/2013)