Break your back
Rip apart your ribs
Scream until you cough blood
What are you looking for?
Maybe that one thing
You can call your own
You may never find it
But keep searching for
Your heart
It might be in there somewhere

The first cut shallow and pained
Slicing the skin on my wrist in two
Deep red emerges in a thin line
The next cut, deeper with more emotion
The tears that started two hours before
Continue to ebb and flow
Leaving tracks of mascara smearing as I wipe the stain away
The next cut breaks deeper
The skin on my back and arms raise as gooseflesh
Maybe a moan maybe a cry seeps from my teeth
A hot trickle of blood rains from the cut
Pouring down into the empty hole of the sink
A sting of water wakes me from the trance as I stare at the razor which blemished my skin

I keep telling myself, one more, one more, one more...
And walking away from the bathroom and the blood
To find myself wandering in again to clutch the razor and bring it to my skin

Breathing hot air on my skin
Sweat droplets race
Tangling legs splay across the white sheets
Searching hands grab for a hold
Nails sink into raised skin
Keeping your attention on where it needs to be
Eyelids flutter with in the intensity of a fleeting moment
Blushed faces and chests rising and falling chaotically

Body weight looming over me
Your eyes searching mine
And I know you burn for me

After the love  
I held with different hands
Kissed with unknown lips
I tasted the difference on my tongue
Disgustingly sweet torture I endured for you

Being with you is like
Chasing tornados
It's a miracle when I find you
The chase is the exciting part
I get too close and you pull me in
But it's when you've caught me
I truly realize the mistake I've made

Most things take time
Trust
Love
But not affection
You can build trust and with trust follows love
Affection is wild and crazy not following anything
Just burning hot and never taking the time to ask why

Maybe you could call me pretty
And I could fall in love with the way you say my name
You could get lost in my eyes and the feeling of my hands in your hair
But we know this will all end soon
I won't get back to you
And you will find someone new to spend time on
This could be how it works
Or we could change it forever