Words meant to express  , I repress
better to say less or nothing at all.

You say you love me  and then you hate me ,
your confusing me darling .
You want me to stay and yell at me to leave ,
your confusing me darling.
and then you wonder why ?

Of course I am  leaving !
why stick around ? To  be put down?
I stood up as you stood back
I showed no reaction  , no confrontation
and walked away

It killed my dog
And it killed me
      

It killed it
Still killing it
And forever will ****

I thought of you today , your on mind all the time
Why ?
When you treated me mean , yelled and screamed
Pushed me away to where I am at today
no on else to blame
But Me.

Where are you?
And are you okay?
I haven't seen you
I haven't heard your voice
I don't even know you anymore.
It's not okay
I think about you everyday.
I've had many daddy's after you
The worst one was
YOU!
P.s I love you

Once again I put my self thru heart break and pain
Not complaining
I'm just saying
Aye,  is love meant for me ?
If it was love would I know?  Love has  been the same, a wicked game
Till then ....