„i‘m glad when i can go to work“ is my biggest scream of surviving in a burning wood

suddenly i am swimming in the ocean
without anything to keep me above the water
and there are waves come and go
i can’t even prepare myself for them
there are just happening in a second
and i‘m still above the water
but
how
much
longer?

walking on thin, cracked ice without knowing why the ice is thin and cracked is the hardest thing to deal with

where my sun once shone is now a heavily rain poured in from the people i love

i see everything you never were in the other people

my heart is so heavy, with every step i take i drag a whole bunch of bricks with me

every day i wish
that my parents would have given me away when i was a baby
cause that would mean
i would‘ve been adopted
by parents
who want to have child
to love it
and not
to abandon it
or destroy
it’s tiny soul