walking on thin, cracked ice without knowing why the ice is thin and cracked is the hardest thing to deal with

where my sun once shone is now a heavily rain poured in from the people i love

i see everything you never were in the other people

my heart is so heavy, with every step i take i drag a whole bunch of bricks with me

every day i wish
that my parents would have given me away when i was a baby
cause that would mean
i would‘ve been adopted
by parents
who want to have child
to love it
and not
to abandon it
or destroy
it’s tiny soul

if i just had loving and caring parents
i wouldn’t be in this situation now

why do i have to carry out the pain you once gave me?
why do i have to carry the fault if it was all you?
why is it always me that is in pain?
why?
why?
why?
why?
why…?