Do you know how infuriating it is
To love you?
To wait up all day
Hoping you’ll get online?
Do you get that it burns
Every time I look at you
And realize
That you’re not looking at me?
When I see someone else
Make you laugh
And feel my blood boil in anger
Because I should be the one
Making you smile?
When I hear you speak
And feel jealous
When your words aren’t directed at me.
I walk specific paths in school
In the hope
That I’ll see you.
(not that I’ve memorized your schedule.)
And when you do finally talk to me
I’m tongue-tied
And silly
Foolish
Wishing I knew what to say.
Do you know how infuriating it is
To love you?
But the worst part
Is that I don’t know
If you love me, too.
And until I know for sure
That you don’t,
I’ll keep waiting
And hoping
And being jealous
Of your smiles, laughs, and words.
I’ll keep dreaming
That maybe someday
You’ll think it’s infuriating
To love me, too.

I promise I won’t break the chain
Or the heart it hangs from
I promise not to drop the hope
That’s holding on to someone
I swear that I won’t lose the faith
You taught me to hold on to
I swear I won’t forget the love
I felt when I first saw you
I’ll try to not accept the words
They whispered when I failed
I’ll try to cover up the stains
That all the teardrops trailed
I’ll give you everything I have
If in return you’ll catch me
Together we can brave the years,
Together we’ll be happy.

Can you outrun
The dying sun
That washes away the past?
I didn’t believe
We’d really leave.
Thought today would always last.  

But the sun will set
And those I’ve met
Will leave like the fading light.
And memories
Like wilting trees
Will crumble in the night.  

If we could stay,
Relive the day,
Would you come and live with me?
We’d pause the clocks,
With all our thoughts
Still focused on being free.

So take my hand
Run as fast as you can
We’ll see how much time we can steal.
Turn back the past
Make the moments last
You can’t even tell it’s not real.

We’ll live there forever
Our friends all together
Where the sun never sets in the sky
We’ll have all of time
With your hand in mine
There’s never a need for “Goodbye”

But you can’t outrun
The dying sun
Our time is condemned to be through.
They say that we’re home
But they should have known
My home was with all of you.

Coat the old snow, grey and dirtied
To pristine white, and show the crowds.
Coat the sky in endless flurries
Hide the truth in snowy shrouds.  
Let them see it solid, flawless
Before the footsteps break the dream,
And show the past we hid for solace
From knives that cut the fragile seams.
Tell them it’s a perfect wonder,
Nothing damaged, nothing black.
Don’t let them see the dying embers,
Don’t let them look behind their backs.
If they ask how it’s perfection,
Smile sweet, then smoothly lie,
In the endless recitation:
“Who cares to know the reasons why?”
Don’t show them all the broken windows,
Hidden in the snowy hills.
Swallow all your heavy sorrows,
And grin against the biting chills.
If they ask about the color,
Tell them snow is clear and pure,
And we’ve no need for any other,
That whiteness is the perfect cure.

Coat the old snow, white and plain,
Create the dream and make it last.
When they’re not looking, hide the pain,
Hide the truth and hide the past.

I’m afraid of tomorrow, so let me run
Freeze the rotations of the moon and the sun.
Grab all the hands of the clocks and hold tight.
Forget the distinction of morning and night.
Pretend there’s forever in what’s left of today,
That if we start running we’ll be able to stay.
Say our mistakes were all perfectly planned,
That someday again we can walk hand-in-hand.
Pray that each step has a foot in the past
And we’ll live every day like we know it’s our last.
Make me believe that your lies were all true,
That someday we’ll look and the sky won’t be blue.
Tell me the fears that I have aren’t for naught.
Pretend there’s success in each battle we fought.
Whisper that I won’t get lost in life’s games.
Promise my dreams won’t all die in the flames.
Sever the debts to the future we owe,
And run down a path that we swore not to go.
The sunrise is coming, so I’m starting to run,
And stop all the clocks before our time’s done.
Grab onto the moon so we can make the night last
So tomorrow is never, and today is the past.