It's never going to happen for me
The brokeness runs too deep
The trauma is way too much to work through
These pieces are the foundations I built myself on
And I've crumbled and I can't rebuild
And I don't want to

Less love in my soul than ever before
I’ll be taking care of myself
From here on out
And God, I don’t want to

I can’t keep killing my soul
There will be none of me left
To love the little I have

Loveless, I’ll live, I guess
What an unhappy existence

Maybe I’ll give up one day

Maybe later

Belief but total disbelief at the same time
Am I still saved or am I too far gone

The sad is big today
Permeating
Think, tangible, and just big
Soaked all the way through
I can feel it in my feet and in my hands
But I haven’t cried
I don’t think I can

Flirting with every woman on the planet
I’m not attracted to you as a person
You’re killing me smalls
There’s nothing in your soul to entice me at all

I wish I was an alchemist
Then maybe I could make myself a silver lining

Or at the very least have a sweet *** intro

“Well adjusted”
“The relationship was unhealthy”
“You were not being entirely fair”
“No”