Ranita

Ranita Feb 2013

Run.

Run far far away.

Run far away,

From this,

From me.

Ranita Feb 2013

I cry because I'm lonely, I cry because I'm scared.

I cry because I can't move out, I cry because I cared.

I can only tell a story, and I can because it's mine.

Although it's still a secret, and I tell you that I'm fine.

I lie because I love you, and I don't want you to know.

I bottle up my feelings, and hardly ever let them go.

I'm sorry I'm so lonely, I'm sorry I'm so scared.

I'm sorry that I can't move out,

But mostly,

I'm sorry that I cared.

Ranita Feb 2013

Innocence.

Ice skates and two bite brownies
I don't know what innocence is
Walls, I need walls.
Darkest rooms and beige hallways
In an instant, stolen.
Run, run away.
Leather sofas and pure accidents.
What is happening to me?
Stop this, stop it now.
Tinted windows and background music
What have I done?
Walls, run, stop.

Please, just stop.

Ranita Feb 2013

Untitled

I could be in the most idyllic situations,
I could have my best friend listening closely,
But all that's on my mind,
Will never leave my mouth.

I could cry all the frustration out,
I could cry all the energy from my body,
But no one would ever know,
What's really in my head.

I could fight it,
I could give up,
But I'm stuck,
For a little longer.

Then there is...
Freedom.

Ranita Feb 2013

Mondays: a haiku.

Please I want to sleep.
I don't want to leave you, bed.
You look so pretty.

Ranita Feb 2013

Complications

I hate complicated things.
I hate them.
I hate them.
I hate them.
I want the answers mapped out.
But they aren't.
Never ever mapped out.
Always guessing,
Always failing.
Why aren't you proud?
I do my best.
I fail yes.
Please
Oh God, PLEASE
Be proud.

Ranita Jan 2013

The Art of Simplicity

Complications fade
They fade to little things.
Almost non existant.
The art of simplicity, a friend.
Always comforting me.
Reminding me
That yesterday is nothing.
That today is easy.
And tomorrow is freeing.