Memories start self-loathing

I'm losing faith in the things I can't see, heaven and hell, is it really the final destiny? Help me cause I've fallen off the edge of reality, I'm caught up in the past mind games, of who I use to be. Will you be there to pick me up when I fall down, my voice is so small compared, to the flooded crowd.Can hear the empty pleads? I found a pain that makes my soul bleed.In the darkness I feel blind, I need your unconditional love to lead me back into the light. In the world we are nothing at all, but in your word you say we are all beautiful, in the moments I can't breathe, is my addiction my final destiny, it can't be my destiny. Don't lose hope, your love is with me that I know, You say we are not alone. Don't lose hope.

You liked me for a while
You didn't like me long
Feeling special inside
I wrote you a love song

You like me for an hour
Only by your eyes
Your love I could not capture
By storm or by surprise

Mouthful of words I remember
Gives me a rush of sudden pain
Alone I want the starlight in September
I see wilted roses grow after rain

You didn't give me a chance to change
Not knowing I'll never be the same
You have no idea what you're gonna miss, so let's seal our fate with the one kiss

Shdjsnsk

Will you meet with me here? where the sun is always shining, and its ok to find our joy thru the pain, life is short but lets not die in vain
Nothing lasts forever, in a lost in broken world.
That fades from dark to Grey, life is the measure
were in search of empty pleasure, to find ourselves
before we let out time slip away
Nothing lasts forever, the world is in search
for your treasure, dont let people steal your heart away
nothing lasts forever, nothing lasts forever
its the time we spend together that makes the world
seem ok!

Lord let my heart beat be to the sound of your favorite song, guard my heart with your word, let my sorrow be a sweet fragrance to you, let the aroma of my tears smell like the dew of heaven, let my eyes see the wonderful work you do. Humble me in your sight, forgive me of my transgressions, let your word ***** my heart. Lord my vow to you means nothing, for how can dust be valuable to you? Lord you made a covenant with me, please don't leave me nor forsake me. Lord I surrender my thought life to you please teach me a new way of thinking. A Holy Spirit way of thinking, Holy Spirit I need you I need your fire I need your comfort, I need your friendship. It's you that knows what to pray when I don't. Shift my thinking uproot my selfish desires teach me how to walk in your holiness, in the light of your word my eyes can see. I surrender to your ways.

I exhale words that you breathe,

It's the air that you need,

Your  beauty gives me oxygen,

To give life to the songs that I sing.

I give life to the songs that You sing,

My beauty gives you oxygen,

It's the air that I need,

You exhale words that I breathe.

I sing a praise to the king,
Be exalted,we exalt you
You made everything
With the words that you spoke
You cleansed my mind
Your love mended my heart that was broke.

Every now and then
The earth is covered in
Darkness
Whistling wind
Sings a song of despair
branch's swaying
Up down
Left right left right
In cadences
Leaves begin to dance
Thick grey clouds weep
Drums of lightning
Roar
Lions are on watch
Time is nothing
A fleeting moment
Pictures can't truly grasp
love is unobtainable
*** isn't
Although I'd much rather be
In love
Wouldn't you????

Walls are shaking....
Rearranging
My mind is always racing
My heart is breaking my body is aching.

I was only one
Coming undone
The southern accent
On record screaming at me you're screaming You're always screaming at me...

Oh the urge is setting in
The needle ****** my skin
Overwhelming
The good feelings overwhelming

Walls are closing in
The walls are closing in
With your southern accent
Screaming at me
You're always screaming at me

Oh the urges setting in
Desperation calls my name
Overwhelming
Everything's overwhelming