i wanted to tell you about how ****** my day was,
and how i kinda miss you
funny how it started off with a silly dream that
someday i would be waking up next to you
after the next few "i miss you"s,
i want to be with you through your highs and lows
when you feel like the world couldn't get any darker at 3am
when you feel like you couldn't sink any lower
its been a while
and im still here, clueless as ever
and that's the problem about distance
it was never about
how far apart we were
it was about how fast we grew apart,
how soon i lost you
"i was in love with an idea
but an idea can never love you back."

i used to feel like Paris
now i'm a one night stand
the thought of you
sinks to the lowest part
like a body buried 6ft deep
i never knew
cupid's tears was blessed with poison
and i never cared
about the holes you left in my heart
"may the bridges I burn light my way"
i'll pour the ******* fuel if I needed to
and set myself on fire
i'll be my own guide
to the light i desire

***** baby
begging you to stay
you said you miss me
i guess you're just sorry
i'm sorry i fell in love tonight

you were my nicotine
fitting in and fading out
you took me by storm
i took a risk and made a home out of you
i guess i asked for it
broken ribs and bloodshot eyes
what was i suppose to do
the stars dont align
the sun doesnt shine
the bridges we built, or so i thought
seems to fall apart
you were never here but i still find pieces of you in my room
*******, i hate you
but i hate that i miss you more

i don't understand how people think
cigarettes can fill the void, or how
alcohol can **** the anxiety
"buy art not *******"
i'll buy art and *******
if it means
time was a childhood myth and
mona lisa was in love with leornado da Vinci
you need to know
how much the carousel
misses the children
how the lights still flicker
how the music still cracks
just in case
i don't know where i'm going with this
i just thought
home is where you are
at the ****** house
or under the northern lights
home is where you are
home is where you are