SOLACE

SOLACE Nov 2014

I have never felt such pain.
I only hope the poison piercing through my veins kills me.
My fatal organs are being crushed by all of the pressure and I fear I'm going to break.
My bones feel hollow and I really want to sleep.
My eyes have cried oceans but are now barren land.
The butterflies that I once felt in my stomach when I was with you have all died.
The flowers you gave me have all dried up too.
Nothing seems beautiful anymore not even you.
The streets are sad and grey and they make me want to run far away.
Everything is turning black now. All of the colours have faded.
Everything that once was beautiful has vacated.
Your apologetic eyes are made of glass and I see straight through you.

SOLACE Nov 2014

When they go.

What I learnt about people and when they leave is that you have to let them.
Let them go because they need to.
Let them go because they have to.
The reasons they are going may not be reasons you understand, but they are their reasons and that is enough.
You can cry and scream and act as pathetic as you like.
But then you have to let them walk away.
You have to let them go places, and explore worlds you do not exist in.
You have to let them go and you have to be okay with it.
Because its never really about if they leave or stay all its really about is if they return.

SOLACE Nov 2014

we are the forgotten ones.

we are the forgotten ones.
left behind like bones.
we are already gone.
they wont miss us or mourn.
they wont look back or dwell.
they will forget us like the memory of yesterday.
we are already gone.
we are the forgotten ones.

SOLACE Nov 2014

Before I go.

Before I go I will pick up all of the broken pieces of love that have been left scattered on the ground, and I will stuff each and every last shard into my ribcage.
I will call out to the wind and demand the answers to all the questions I have left to ask.
I will collect and burry each and every deep dark secret I know deep into the earth.
I will wash all of my greed and guilt away into the river.
I will throw the last of my aching black soul into the fire to die.
Then at last I will say goodbye.

SOLACE Nov 2014

It will end.

One day those bones of yours will begin to rust.
Fading away.
Reducing to dust.
Just as everything else had wasted away, gone with the winds of yesterday.
You wont be you and I wont be I.
Neither of either wont apply.
The sun will stop being hot and the moon will stop shinning.
Our minds will fade and time will wade.
And it will all stop.
And it will all end.

SOLACE Nov 2014

forgive them

If there is one thing you should know it is that you should forgive them.
Even if they are not sorry.
Even if they do not care.
Forgive them.
Forgive them not because you have to but because you can.
Forgive them because you should not have to carry the weight of what they have done upon your shoulders.
Forgive them because late at night while you are sleeping they will be wallowing in the guilt of what they have done, even if the do not realise it yet.
Forgive them because its right.
Forgive them because in a world where people can hurt you like that there is a need for the kind of beauty found in forgiveness.
Forgive them.

SOLACE Nov 2014

~ the lies i tell myself ~

I don't need you.
                      Its just a longing ache in my chest.
I don't need you.
                      It will go away.
I don't need you,
                      The pain will fade.
I don't need you.
                     Soon the memory of you will be lost to me like yesterday.
I don't need you.
                       One day I'm going to be okay.
I don't need you.

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