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Dec 2011 · 1.1k
Redefine
Sofia Paderes Dec 2011
Have I lost
Myself?

Are these
Lies?
Or are they
Just
The ugly truth?

Have I lost myself?

These names
These labels
These choking
Judgments they have cast on me

They must be true.

Liar.
Idiot.
Thief.
Coward.
Traitor.
*****.

These names
Are my names.
My labels.
Me.

They define me.
They make me who I am.
These names.
They
Are
Me.

They tell me.
All day long
Without fail
That
I
Am

Worthless.
Friendless.
Hopeless.

Unloved.
Impure.

They tell me
That I cannot do
Anything.

That I’m worth nothing.
That everything is impossible
Because
Just because
I’m me.


They must be right.
These words
Ring in my ears
Constantly.

Each syllable
Beats in my head
Like a never
Ending
Drum.

I remember when
I was so alive.

I remember----

Wait.

No.

No.

No.

No.

I was made for so much more.

These names may have defined me.
These names may have hurt me.
These names may have brought me down.
These names may have crushed me.

But He will

Redefine

Me.

Allow me
To redefine
Me.

I am

Priceless.
Fearless.

I am

A new creation.
The new has come.
Those names will not define me.
They cannot
Define me.

I am

Chosen.
Loved.
Pure.

Made new
In an image so amazing
With a fire in my spirit ever blazing

None can compare.

Watch me
Spread my wings
And escape the clutches
Of the dominion of darkness

Watch me
Do things
You  thought
And told me I’d never be able to do

Watch me rise up again
Watch me transform
Watch me defeat the enemy
Watch me prove
Watch me prove.
You.
Wrong.

I have a new spirit.
A new heart.
Which was once stone,
Has melted into flesh.

For I will no longer
Conform to the pattern

My past cannot hold me
In its dark chambers anymore

For I will look ahead
Above the skyline
Beyond the horizon
And reach a place
That is unimaginable

I now lay down
The things
I thought
Defined me

And allow those things
To be
Thrown
As far as the east is from the west

Gone is condemnation.
Gone is the past.
Gone are the old wineskins.
Gone are those names.
The lies.
The words of the people
Who want to steal
****
And
Destroy
Me.

I know that
I’ve fallen short of the glory,
But

I have been remade.
I have been reborn.
I have been redeemed.

I have entered the Kingdom.

I have been

Redefined.
Nov 2011 · 852
i still believe
Sofia Paderes Nov 2011
i wished upon a star,

and every night, i flew

to the second star to the right.


i spent my time,

looking for the house of the seven dwarves.

i painted with the colors of the wind,

and discovered the enchanted, glass-covered rose.


i went the distance,

lived in the hundred-acre wood,

and wore my glass slippers everyday.


i fought dragons,

found thingamabobs,

and lived a million happily ever afters.


the gown always snug,

the tiara always fit,

and i never forgot my gloves.


then, something dreadful happened.

i grew up,

and

reality hit me hard in the face.


the stars lost their shine,

and i lost my way

to the second star on the right.


the seven dwarves' house seemed even farther away now,

the wind lost its colors,

and the last petal fell.


the roads were blocked,

the dark wood showed its true colors,

and i lost the other pair

of my beautiful glass slippers.


the dragons defeated me,

the thingamabobs were lost to the sea.


i outgrew the gown,

the tiara lost its sparkle,

and my gloves were thrown into the trash.


and i found out,

that in real life,

there are no happily ever-afters.


but, i refuse to let this be so.

one day,

when all this is over,

i will find it.

my castle in the clouds.

and i'll be able to smile again,

and whisper,

"dreams do come true."
Nov 2011 · 629
ben
Sofia Paderes Nov 2011
ben
the ripe, red fruit he used to pick

from the tree in,

the garden he loved.



i remember.



his eyes.

still.

appearing lost

but

always watching me

from the distance.



i remember.



his smile.

no words.

just

the constant flashing of

a row of not-quite white teeth.

like unpolished pearls.

but pearls all the same.



i remember.



his old chess board.

and,

the way.

he

moved.

each.

piece.



i remember.



his hearty laugh,

when a joke was told,

or

when he just wanted

me to feel

loved.



i remember.



the way his body

looked.

before he turned into

ashes.



i remember.



when he was still breathing,

when he was still walking,

ever so slowly.



i remember.



the tears i shed,

my heart that bled,

when she told me he

had gone away,

never.

to.

come back.

again.



i remember.
Oct 2011 · 374
there i
Sofia Paderes Oct 2011
in the shadow of your wings,

there i sing.

in the mighty palm of your hand,

there i dance.

under the gaze of your loving eyes,

there i stand.

in the comfort of your strong arms,

there i am relieved.

standing beside you,

forever holding your hand,

there i am.
Oct 2011 · 606
untouched
Sofia Paderes Oct 2011
i’m in the midst of lions.

i lie among ravenous beasts.

men who carry spears and arrows,

are all around me.


but i know i’ll be alright,

your hand is guiding me.

a thousand may fall at my side,

i’ll remain

untouched.
Oct 2011 · 517
daddy's words
Sofia Paderes Oct 2011
“you have a purpose,”

he whispers gently to me.

his love means the world.
Oct 2011 · 573
shadow friend
Sofia Paderes Oct 2011
she thought she was alone.

what was once soft and sweet,

vanished.

instead came a dark cloud.


what was once beautiful and true,

vanished.

a broken heart and a twisted mind

came.

and.

stayed.


every teardrop was a waterfall.

the pieces were like shattered glass,

too little to pick up,

sharp.

and.

deadly.


she thought she was alone.

she didn’t see

the small, tiny,

flickering flame

that was there the whole time.


she thought she was alone.

she.

thought.

wrong.
Oct 2011 · 856
Cry of the Weary Slave
Sofia Paderes Oct 2011
Cold, metal claws clenched bleeding wrists

Injustice.

Weather beaten faces groaned under

The leather snake’s bite.

Injustice.


Reaching out with bony hands,

But slapped away by stronger arms,

Injustice.

Freedom gone, hope dim, shadows creep in and stay,

Long gone justice was.


I tried searching for it, though.

Every nook and cranny,

Every inch of my stone, cold cell.

Even the cobwebs and spiders.

No trace of justice on them,

No trace at all.


They say every scar has a story,

To tell.

Does this spell justice?

Freedom?


To own nothing?

Not even my own body?

To cry out for help but,

Knowing deep in my soul,

That none will ever come.


A living corpse so starved,

I am just a skeleton,

With a thin blanket of flesh,

Knotted and sewn tight ‘round my bones.


I am chained.

Body, soul, and spirit.

Struggling.

Falling.

With no strength to get back up,

And you call this justice.
Oct 2011 · 490
she danced
Sofia Paderes Oct 2011
she twirled

she glided

she leaped

she spun

she kicked

she ran

she pointed

she smiled

she cried

she laughed

she sighed

she jumped

she flew

she moved
Oct 2011 · 1.8k
guilt
Sofia Paderes Oct 2011
an iron ball in

my chest, weighing my heart down

i cry, “forgive me!”
Oct 2011 · 1.4k
a summer afternoon
Sofia Paderes Oct 2011
fshooooo

whispering wind

lazy leaves


hmmm

sighing sun

buzzing bees


shhhh

roots relaxing

bored branches


click clack*

toes tapping

blowing breeze
Oct 2011 · 2.6k
my room
Sofia Paderes Oct 2011
dragon’s flames

rubber bands and blank paper sheets

a pair of *****, red sneakers

black and white keys

thick, old books

crumpled paper

a box of paints

pencil shavings

shades of gray

stacks of cds

dog-eared magazines

ancient stuffed toys

newspapers from two months ago

ninja gear and beyblades

a box of keychains

picture-plastered walls

last week’s jeans

yesterday’s jacket

ballpens with no ink

worn out satin slippers

an overused waveboard

loose change and

illustration boards

all found in

my room
Oct 2011 · 632
don't
Sofia Paderes Oct 2011
fear is like a heavy mist

a flower-choking ****.

a huge brick wall,

a pair of shackles,

the unknown waters.


fear is the red light,

the barrier only faith can break.

fear is poison,

the “do not” sign.


but the only “do not”

you should not not

is

.

.

.

fear
Oct 2011 · 723
autumn
Sofia Paderes Oct 2011
leaves falling, dancing.

red and gold dresses adorn

but soon comes the fade
Oct 2011 · 586
The Walk Home
Sofia Paderes Oct 2011
Ice cream bars

Tucked deep in her coat-pocket

They won’t melt.

She trudges on in the icy whiteness.


Crinch, crunch, crinch, crunch

Sound of snow

Being stomped on and crushed

Under boots so heavy.


“Mommy, are we there yet?”

The question lingers in the chilly air.

On they walk.


Gray sky, no clouds,

Howling winds and noses cold,

On they trudge.
Oct 2011 · 607
silent flower
Sofia Paderes Oct 2011
silent flower opens its eyes,

silent flower against the moonlit sky.

silent flower steadily grows,

silent flower gleams and shines.

silent flower starts to fade,

silent flower is…

silent

— The End —