Losing something oh so sweet
Something so dear
You just cant bare
Its the feeling of sadness you will meet

to be called a freak
for the entirety of the week
rumors being spread
your head filling with dread
it is peace I seek

its a giant wave
crashing over me
my sight is getting blurry
the air's escaping my lungs
i try to fight
but it takes control
I'm slowly losing hope
and I can't escape
so please rescue me

the image staring back at me
wasn't quite the same
It seemed younger
and happier
than I have ever been
a smile spread across her face
eyes filled with happiness
she seemed so true
and kinda new
but the truth lays on the other side
the one looking at the image
with stress filled thoughts
and broken smiles
Trying to get through
though one thing was the same for both
they were being them
with no false truths
or hidden feelings
they were both happy
happy to be themselves
with no boundaries

seeing you I act so calm
but inside I have butterflies
my heart beats fast
only around you
your voice so soft
and pleasant to my ears
your words make me like you again
the feeling dwells inside me
as you walk away clueless
You asked me if I love you
I told you I don't know
But maybe it is true
I'm hopelessly in love with you

rereading those written thoughts
takes me back
to a time I was okay,
happy to be me,
being perfectly imperfect.
what happen?
who am I?
where did that me go?
and when did the new me come to be?
why cant I be okay with myself anymore?
I want to be okay,
I want to understand,
but most of all...
I want you to be there
like when I cant be
I want to know you're going to be there
when I need you the most
but truly, you usually aren't
and that's okay,
i'm okay
or at least I will be
hopefully

if I wrote you a letter
would you ever write back?
if I gave you my heart
would you give it back?
if I sang you a song
would you sing one back?
if I said that I love you
would you say it back?

I'm a mess
that's overly obsessed
struggling to get through
in hopes that ill be finding you

it's in the night
the feelings show
the sadness seeps
into your soul

even those
so bright and cheery
have thoughts so dark
it makes you eery

the time flies by
3 hours have past
getting no sleep
But it never lasts

you deserve more
than what he has to give
his time is not yours
his heart is not yours
you give him all of you
your heart is his
your time is his
you don't see
that it's all one sided

The feel of your breath
up against my cheek
Shivers going down my spine
suddenly I feel free
Your touch, so soft,
and warm on my skin
You make me feel so special
I don't want to give in

Sometimes it seems like the love isn't there
as if i'm standing alone in the middle of a storm.
i know things are hard right now
i know that ill never truly understand
i try
i'm trying
things are hard for me too right now
i know they aren't as bad as they are for you
i love you
i'm sorry
ill try a little harder next time

When you call me that name
it's my heart that races
Only you could make me feel that way
with no one could it ever be the same
I've seen a lot of people and been a lot of places
but with you is where i'll stay

It's only with you, so please don't go away

your words haunt me
they make tears spring to my eyes
like lightning brings thunder
but the difference is,
thunder and lightning is much more enjoyable
where your words and my tears are not
you said you'd try
you don't
its like the words went in one ear
then came right out the other
words out of your mouth...
meaningless
tears from my eyes?
meaningful
your words and my tears..
your words cause damage
my tears just follow
like lightning brings thunder
lightning causes damage
thunder just follows

I need your concern
but its just not there.
I want your help
but you just dont give it.
I wish for your support
but it's just not being shown.
I long for your care
but I just dont feel it.
And now I'm just aching
because I want
and need
and hope
and long
for you.