Although plunged into its madness,
I do not see the light, but I seek it
Shame is a burden on my back,
Please unburden me, please at least for a moment?
And you my torch in the dark corridor
And like a stray dog I run to you,
but you are extinguished
Then a crowd of thoughts my mind haunts,
because why were you here when you left me
And like the ****** dog
I return
To the place where I was lost
Now on a chain
And still immersed
into my own madness,
And still with shame
on my back

Please let me come out of the pollution - i said.
cleanse me,
let me look with the happiest eyes,
in clear colours.

My God, don't make me be a mist
I know I feel better this way
but the alternative life make me confused

I don't want to be like that

Help me,
help me find a way out
from the labyrinth of suffering,
because for the first time in my life
i want to spread my wings
and fly high,
without being drugged.

i am a coward,
because I want to change my soul so much, and I'm afraid of change

i am a fugitive,
because towards the light I aim, and still into the darkness I turn back

i am a liar,
because I am full of regrets, by my choices made,
which I consciously chose

a flower was planted in me, but I never bloomed

I don't wanna live in a hole anymore

although a hand was extended to me, I did not accept
and then I fell
filled with shame
to myself

you are the air
i breathe that
because i need to stay alive

escape reality,
looking for light,
but always ending up in the darkness

Brazenly in my empty room I seek revelation
i seek help and light

My God help me if you are there
and my God has listened,
entrusted me with the power to rise high in the air
but the moment was short and too false
although for the first time in my life I began to appreciate a moment,
but this was the one in which I was most lost, trampled.

I searched for more and begged for more,
God take off my sins - I shouted.

God this time gave me an answer and in a heavy voice said;
“My child, for me to really take off your guilt and despair,
you must face reality, face what is around you.”

And then an empty tear,

God, but why did you send me here then?

“My child, your path by your deeds chosen, your confusion by your own decisions indicated”.
and then darkness and silence.

Listening to this silence I sob
i want to stop, please direct me with light
but this time room was filled with unanswered questions

I sit high again
.
Higher, higher and higher

I know only one thing now,
God is his child disappointed

My words were never so beautiful
were only conscious
poetry showed me that I belong somewhere
because all my life I wandered in an unknown direction
stopping to think whether to turn back
and that's how I got lost
help me, I shouted
but no one was here
So I started writing
I discovered myself, I am so grateful
that my person was filled with personality.
I still don't know who I am,
but I know that for the first time of my live
i am going in the right direction,
to save myself