Lust is thick in the air
once again
A summeresque temptation
builds like an intimidating tower
You've laid the foundation,
never thinking it would
amount to anything
Vicious desire eats at your heart
as you step forward
I warned you with my tired gaze
But like every other time
You were stuck
in your frivolous haze
Your virtue in my hands
I think I've held it
for the past few years
for the both of us
Or so you wish

-cj

How is living as a human?
Isn't it everything you ever wanted?

-cj

Mum and Dad told me I'm worthless and through my teeth in my silent style I agreed and went to sleep only to return to the heavy brick grey of the gems

-cj

You're too old to be so shy
yet too young to know love
in its ice capes
and moss peaks
wanting
longing
short years full
of endless months
just wondering
when the good
will begin
and put me in a trance
that I refuse
to be shaken out of

-cj

clicks are the sound as the sidewalk
is the misty stage
it's too early
and too late
to go back to sleep

-c.j.

go ahead and act like
we aren't all synaesthesiacs
like the colours don't remind
and numbers don't become
we can deny our tendencies,
our clingings
as if the monochromatic
one-dimension will get
us through

-c.j.

welcome to april,
where the girls try steal your man
and you want to purge all you can

-cj

Young, but so done living
Everyday is just another brick in the wall
Smoke it, drink it, take a look at it
Try me, says the liar
Come on, little fool, don't fall for it when all
your friends are blaring with why not to

-cj

It's hard keeping secrets from you
But I am too sad to tell you,
right now at least
I'm scared how you'd react
and I don't want things to change
I want to freeze everything
Make it stay still for a little while
Though the delusions in my head
will continue to multiply

-cj

my life was hell, you know that
but you make me feel like I matter
maybe in luckless fights, maybe mistakes
yet better than killing yearnings
how we listen, mercifully
my chest is swelling, but in a good way
and I look you in the eyes and say

I'm in love with you, I'm in love with you
and you told me you love me, too

you have put me through both heaven and hell
and I have come to believe that every minute
of it was worth it

-c.j.

it's
crowded
in here,
the thoughts
said
in the cage

-cj

The peace in the pieces
left from the war
Mock and spit at us
in every direction
But the veterans
look down from heaven
Or wherever they went
And tell us
to ignore them
They are wasted and spent

-cj

I can remember the part
of the night
that was more grey
than the others
I cry as the question
is the only thing
I can see
and the "neutral" song
winds in my ears
and out of my soul,
lingering there
to touch my salt tears

-cj

You lock your desire inside and
I hate how you do that
I know you see me, and
you have for the past seven months
Now why must we be
separate as isles in the sea?
You remember how I told you
what you were to me
Blissful time passes and
We do as well
How I yearn for the moment you
lift the rusty metal off your door
to let me in

-cj

your face is what they call
a happy myth

-cj