My child,
If you are to love
Love as though every time was the first
Or as though there is a brand new light
A new light inside your soul.
Become an inspiration for others
Show them what love truly means.

My child,
Don't be afraid to fall,
We all fall for the first lie
No matter how cautious we try to be.
Don't be afraid to fall.
For that's how we know if it's true or not.

It's been so long
since I've seen or even heard you
since you've left.. it's gotten darker
the days are longer,
the minutes slower.

What happened to you?
You were the one who saw the good in everyone.
The one to pick up the broken pieces of someone else's story
and fix them
To everyone you were a good friend
No matter how much they hurt you.

Why would someone want to loose that?
Without a word.. you were gone
like a small seed in a wind storm,
flying across the world silently
hoping to land and grow a large tree or perhaps forest.
At least I hope that's what happened to you.
It's been so long..

I wish for your happiness
I wish to see that brilliant smile of yours again
I hope for you to find a better love then I
For it was obvious I failed you,
Why else would you have left?


I wish you luck my friends
I will hide in this darkness I've rarely shown
Just so you all can live happily
Why would you want to care anyways?


I wish my love the best
I wish she will love me
As much as I love her
Why am I so lucky to have you?


I wish I didn't have to wish
I wish and I wish
But it's useless isn't it?
No one can wish for such love or hope
It's impossible..


Isn't it?

Help me.
Help me for I cry to the moon
Help me for i cannot love
Help me... For I am scared of what they speak
Help me for i cannot help myself.
Help me **** these demons that hold me captive in my own dark and shattered mind.
Help me for I've helped you..

Your words were like nicotine.
Hands like knifes.
You cut into my skin and calmed with your words
You made me blind to the damage you had done
I hadn't realized how badly I was cut. How broken I became.

This game we all play with fake masks
Many will remove the mask.
I've tried to take it off..
But it only gets more stuck...
There's always a voice in the back of my mind...
"They don't trust you."
"They won't like the real you.."
All of these thoughts clouding my mind..
Hide the truth from me..
They tell me to put on the mask..
To hide the real me..
How do I take this mask stapled to my face off?

If I'm to die
How many people will remember my name?
How many will remember the real me?
If I'm to die...
How many tears will people cry?
How many dark days would follow?
If I'm to die....
Will anyone even care?
Will they notice?