My heart aches for lucifer
and all the love he could have known
if he had only been shown forgiveness

I keep writing messages and deleting them
and writing and deleting
and hoping I'll gain the courage to send one
to tell you how much I still care
how much I still hurt

You feel like a liar in sheep's clothing
like the husk of someone I never really loved

My heart is ******* pounding
just for you
just because the word baby slipped out of your mouth
and wrapped around me in the sweetest way
boy
you got me feelin a certain way

Im so mentally unstable right now
---
I just want blood
I want hands pulling my limbs from their sockets
I want to rip the hair from my head
And dismember every digit on my two hands
To have my intestines pulled from my body hand over hand
I want to be lying dead on the floor in a mess of parts you can't tell is me

How many years has it been
How many endless days of carving 'forget her'
into the soft tissue of my brain
of my heart

How much longer will it take

I've been thinking a lot about how many mouths have touched yours lately
and how
mine's not one of them