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Grace Ehui Jan 2019
I pledge to give my freedom away to the United States of America (Pause) and the greed for which it stands. One nation under slavery… restrictions…, by pain… and no liberty for all. (pause)
Do you know all the secrets that lie beneath your flag?
To the land of free, I give my freedom
To the land of greed, I give my soul
To this corrupted land, I give all I have for which I will not be recognized
To this land, I give my fighting rights
For this land, I keep quiet for I am discriminated against because of the color of my skin
         To this country, I give the power to the police to arrest me because I am a minority
                     To this country, I give the power to discriminate against me for my sexuality
For I can’t help but be a black gay woman
How are you free when you have a wall dividing from the rest of the world?
         How am I free when I am banned because of my religion?
How are you free when you are scared to leave your house in fear that you might get got?
Tell me this
If this is a free country than how come we’re trapped by the system?
Why is money worth more than my whole existence?
This land is to make you feel free when in reality, you are trapped by the laws
Your every movement watched
Your every step counted
The air you breathe hacked
The water you drink tempered
The education you get makes no sense
Are we being formed to be the leaders or the slaves of the future?
         Everything you do is on record
How am I free when I can get killed for speaking my truth?
Pop! And my freedom vanishes
So, tell me
         Were you born free?
Then how come you’re trapped by the chains of whatever the made this country to be?
         Caged by whatever they put in your mind?
I want my freedom back!
Grace Ehui Jan 2019
I sat there, my head in my hands. My thoughts were going a thousand miles per second, yet i could barely figure out what i was really thinking about as if i was completely numb, the world was spinning but everything was completely still for me. Time had stopped, nothing seemed right. It was as if my world was torn apart. Here i am, in a chair, i sit not really knowing what was happening. I tried to stand up, but i could no longer feel my legs, they were gone, but they were there. I wanted to leave and fly away to somewhere i would not be found or questioned, but i was stuck. The weight of so many things i have been holding back came crashing on my shoulders and i could do nothing but carry it. It hurts, it burns, my soul aches for answers i knew i would never get, because every chance i had to ask for them, i ran away fearing that it would all go to pieces. Once again i wanted to get up and could not. I let go of my head and put my right hand on my chest, i felt something wet. Thousands of rivers were spilled onto my shirt, i looked down, and i was in the water. I lifted t head to look around and i was nowhere that was familiar to my mind, all i saw was water. Was i not just sitting down in a chair? I look around the water, and words were what i saw, every thought i had every word i had ever spoken. They took the form of water and slowing it was rising. I knew it would rise till i was submerged in it, and no longer was able to breathe, or see. I knew i was bound to drown, but i didn't want that yet. I tried swimming to get out of there, but my ankles were trapped. I went underwater to look, and all i saw were chains. Have you ever felt that? have you ever felt tied to your words? No matter how hard you try to escape, you can never do so, because those words you ever spoke are forever a part of you. Have you ever felt followed by your thoughts? No matter where you hide, in plain sight, or in plain darkness, they always seem to find you. No matter how hard you try you can never run away from them because you are forever trapped in a cell with your deepest darkest fears. You know, i tried many times to escape. I tried to get out of that ******* cell, but every plan fails and trusts me i had many plans. I tried escaping through love, through writing, through crying, i even tried nothing. And i still end up in that same **** cell. Of course, it gets easier, but for how long, a few days, then it all goes to **** again? I learned something though, the more you try to run, the more trapped you get. You can't get out of it. Some do, but when your soul is beyond ****** up, that's not a choice you have. You try to hold on to hope as tight as you possibly can, but even hope gets tired of you. What do you then? Do you give up? Do you let it all go and hope to god someone saves you? Do you know what I did? I let go of hope, i knew it was as tired as i am. I am now nothing but a floating spirit in the water, waiting to be saved from drowning in my own darkness. but, how do i let other people save me when i can't even save myself?
Grace Ehui Jul 2018
I sat here, wondering
Where did it all go wrong?
Was it when I said something?
Was so afraid to let you down, that I did exactly so?
Was I just a fragment of your imagination
Something to pass the time?
You had me at hello
My heart was hooked
I let go of something greater than my existence to be with you
And in return, I got nothing but a broken promise and a broken heart
Should I have done it any differently
Should I have loved you another way?
Or maybe it’s just that I’m too great for you
Too much of a challenge for your little mind
Too much of a burden for your soul
We weren’t soulmates
I would have told you if we were
I was blinded by desire and lust
The desire for physical contact
I let it get to my head
That was the problem
We planted a tree we couldn’t take care of
All the leaves fell and you left
Each leaf as a promise you broke
They all fell down, and I saw the truth
You’re scared of love.
You’re scared to let someone in
You’re scared to get hurt, yet you’re the reason why you get hurt.

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