When people ask how you are
What are the odds that you’re going to tell the truth
When it’s honestly just easier to say i’m alright
No one asks questions when you say you’re alright
If only you knew
Knew how i wanted to take an eternal flight
The truth is I’m not alright
But i don’t know how to tell people that  
I don’t know how to receive the help i give
I can help you all day and night
But i feel as if i don’t deserve it so i tell you I’m alright
The truth is, I’m drowning in my sorrows
Not wanting there to be a tomorrow
But it’s ok
I’m alright
Don’t worry your pretty little head
Just sleep tight
Because when it comes down to it
I’m alright

I feel like a prisoner in my own head
My thoughts rattling the cell gate wanting to get out
Then the guard yelling to get back
That’s me... I’m the guard
Telling my feelings to get back
Knowing that no one would understand
Knowing that things are getting out of hand
Ya know the funny thing is, is that they tell you to reach out before it gets bad
But then when you do, you get told you’re overdramatic or overreacting
So I’m constantly stuck feeling like a prisoner and a guard at the same time
Feeling like i’m serving life for a crime
A crime i didn’t even commit
I didn’t ask to feel this way
I didn’t ask for sleepless nights
Contemplating life
I didn’t ask for constant overthinking and never feeling enough
I’m trapped with no way out
I try to scream
I try to shout
But then there comes that guard again
Telling me to shut up because if I tell someone they aren’t going to understand
It’s a constant battle between the two
And i don’t know exactly what to do

God there’s always you
You’re always sitting at the back of my mind
I wanna think about them
How sweet they are
How they make me feel loved and wanted
But then there’s you
I miss you and I shouldn't
It’s clear that you’ve moved on
It’s clear i wasn’t your swan song
I just wanted to be enough for you
God you promised so many things
You promised you wanted to end up with a ring
But then you went and ended it
And for what
You make me feel like i was safe and wanted and loved
To just take it all away simply because you could
I shouldn’t miss you but i do
The way you covered your face when you got flustered
The way you smiled at the thought of a future
But now it’s gone
I want to have that with them
I want to trust again but you took that away
My feelings of safety and security in a relationship is all gone
I want to be with them but then there’s you
And there’s always going to be you isn’t there
I guess i fell way harder than you did
Me ever being happy again without you?
Heaven forbid.