take away all these feelings
of absurdness
bury me by their side
swallow whatever is left
of my light
I rather see you
glowing with radiance
that I could never
manifest

can you feel
that?
the agonizing empathy
which trickles
onto your injured disposition
and I hunger for your fidelity
i long for your embrace
for the melody in which
your colloquy becomes my
asylum

by the time
my mind has sprouted from all the
filth
you've already
spotted your next blossom
only waiting
for her petals to fall
as bad as mine did.

I am
the house
of many un-welcomed guests
they pollute
untruthful filth
leaving blotted stains
onto the floorboards
and smear
corrupt dreams all over the walls
giving an oh so very
languishing look
they always happen
to grab a frenzy of possessions
and never return them
sometimes
they drench the furniture
with lust,
cravings,
urges,
and ignite it for embers to spark
for just a short while
do they not sympathize
that it brings extreme
torment
to a wound that has been stitched up
an abundance of times?
all in all,
my drained distressed self
must get back on my feet
and reconstruct this hell,
once again.

the scent
you've smudged on my
skin
traces back to the hopeful past
only to be brought down
by the deprived present

you were only
a distant memory
a dreadful roller coaster
a disastrous putrid
why do you choose
to be a coward
like the rest of them
treading their cancers
and catastrophes
counting their corners
pushing their boundaries
hurting the innocent
torturing the troubled
we were all doomed
since the beginning
of high school.

I want to feel your breath
on my deprived skin
I want your voice
to echo into my ears
and influence all the
voices
to escape my mind
because it's your turn
to haunt my dreams