It's crazy, she's so beautiful.
 It amazes me, shes so lyrical. 
Every word she speaks makes sounds of songs. 
And every thought I have other than her is gone. 
Has god forsaken me?
There she is, 
but she is taken see.
 And my hearts light shines its bright Vacancy. 
But Only in my dreams would she have taken me. 
Harsh world, 
filled with harsh realities.

Think back to the days when just me and you
Was enough to keep your heart amused.
So it seems things inevitably change.

I know it's selfish to wish things to be the same
Cause people grow up and build upon the pain. 

The memories you're bound to forget, will play on in my head.

Long after my life has been led.

And i will spend time thinking about all the things we said. 

Wondering where you rest, 
I'll imagine a life where we had our happy end.

Often I dream of the countryside.
Where hilltops are  lit with a sunrise. 
Where it's peaceful in the moonlight. 
Life is simple, if not sweet. 
It's odd enough to me to have to be, let alone act an entity. 
I find myself on bended knee. 
Coping only with what will be will be. 
city slicked roads can't guide you home,  but what if asphalt and streetlights are all you've known? 

Follow the breeze to the plush of trees, where everything you say is heard down to the way you breathe. 
The tall green grass stands about knee high, the rush of the stream brings new surprise.  
Country life, 
where the hills roll until they're out of sight. 
And the days unfold until they're out of mind.

I look at you and Im reminded of only good things.
Warm feelings that now seem to have escaped my life completely.
Making these memories didnt seem to be the heartfelt kind.
I think we just glorify things over time.
Playing memories back over and over in our mind,
until the memory played, is a memory made
by your lonely heart.
i remember the start.
We met that winter,
the first year the city had ever been through
the frost.
When the roads closed down we got lost,
walking around til all our energy was exhaust.
Days seemed shorter, it was just as chaotic then
but now it all seems to have been so perfectly ordered.

I can feel the questions before she mentions what's on her mind.
I wanna focus on making things better, there's always time.
This isn't true,
I could be gone tomorrow so could you.
I'm burning with her lipsticks red,
but im feeling every shade of blue.
Somethings are better left unsaid.
so I'll bite my lip on how badly i wish you'd bite my lip.
This world is crazy and i know that you know,
a life can be tough when you're making it on your own.
At seventeen we hit the streets, and found a place to
sleep and eat. found a place to finally, be. but,
No bond is concrete and no one is beyond he
In the lapse of time, from then to now.
ive lost my way somewhere, somehow.

I'm someone that shell never see
I'm in a place she'll never be.
Tonight she sleeps in one of these
silent houses
And I type and  re type because I continually doubt it.
It starts with me it ends with her
That's how I choose to live my world.

i think my brain has become,
as cold and numb,
as the hand beneath my thumb.
where do i begin, where do i start?
always with a thought
provoking further loss of my tolerance
to love,
In this day its best to stay in the light,
and all that ive been is staying for the night.

Dearest mine, please don't change your mind.
I'm waking up now, to the sweetest of sounds spoken aloud.
 So soft 
so sweet
 like it should be spoken in silence. Yours is the kind to make men succumb to violence 
just to have your for their own. 
But your love is not a love to be owned. 
Instead to be admired for every inch that makes you, you. 
I don't deserve the present your presence brings. 
I'm a sinner 
I'm foul, 
but you can make birds sing and wolves howl 
who am I? 
a lonely soul, 
aimless and careless where I should not be. 
Please see the light in me,
you are the first to have the heart in me
unearthed.

I  can feel the encroaching tide approaching right on time.
Sailors pass on boats that slowly move in the night.
I struggle just to hear her speak, her voice is soft or
my ears are weak.
The wind whips past in the oceans crashing roar.
In the light of this full moon shes beautiful even more.
When we get together and talk, they're beautiful conversations.
The way we sit together and write makes beautiful lines.
Even when we sit together in silence, it's a beautiful silence.

I miss you like you wouldnt believe, its killing me not so softly.

I'm trampled under heavy foot, my hearts been on fire, 
now a mound of soot. 
I hope and pray and wish so much, that I could even have a look, a touch, a taste.
 I know things could be different, for instance, we could be smiles and fun!...
if I hadn't jumped the gun
and had you wishing it wouldn't go on. 
I'm stunned.
at how foolish I can act, 
at how frustration says words I cannot take back. 
 You're not mine.. I know that,
 but love is there 
and that's a fact.