she is just as crazy as i am
our relationship
is the perfect storm
the perfect balance
between calm and chaos
some days
we are waves that hit the shore
other days
we are shooting stars
but we don't give up on each other
we want to be together that badly

Do not
Forget your coat
It is a cold world
Out there
And people are not
As friendly as they seem

the world only stops
when she is the right one
it only dances
when she will steal your heart
the world only cries
when you are about to lose her
the world only smiles
when she is smiling
the world only laughs
when she embarrasses herself
the world only screams
when you two are fighting
but the world loves her
so so much
the world appreciates her
you should too
before the world cries forever

you can make me high
when i am oh so low
you can bring me back to life
when i am feeling dead
you can make me smile
when i am in the frowning mood
you can make the pain go away
when it demands to be felt

i push her away
not on purpose
it just happens
sometimes i think she will leave
sometimes i think she should
she doesn't know me well
what i go through every day
how broken i am
how torn my organs are
but i love her
i love her like the moon loves the sky
like the sun love setting after a long day of work
i will always love her
even though i push her away sometimes

sometimes i get headaches
i get them often
very often
sometimes she gives them to me
sometimes i give them to myself
nevertheless, my head gets lit on fire
it feels like the more i over-think
the more my head hurts
the more i push her away
the more i can't sleep
the more unstable i am, the more my head can't take it
these headaches are killing me
killing me softly
killing me slowly
i have no pills left in the bottle
tonight might be the night
a headache takes me away for good

I promise
To love you
With all of my heart
Until I collapse
Until the world goes dark
I promise
To love you
With all of my soul
Until my bones break down
And death is all I know

If I had a dollar
For every time I thought about you
Since the day you left me
I would have enough money
To build a machine
That would make me forget
About all the pain you caused me

distance can't break us
we must stay strong
the days will be long
and the nights will be longer
they will seem endless
until we see each other
don't lose hope
if you do
then i will have nothing
tell me you will try
for me and for you
for us
tell me that you won't give up
so i know that this will not
end as badly as i think it will

I did not sleep last night
Sleep means dreaming
Dreaming means you
You mean pain
Pain of the past
I will sleep tonight
Sleep means remembering
Remembering means you
You mean pain
Pain is my addiction

we both said
that we loved each other
the only difference
between you and i
is that i meant it
and never would have left you
like you left me

from the moment i saw you
i wanted you
man oh man
i wanted everything to do with you
some how
some way
i knew i would get you
i knew i would
i had to
because i never felt that feeling
i never felt the world stop
never heard my heart scream before
never heard a laugh
as funny as yours
and i knew i wanted that laugh
i wanted everything to do with it

Being faithful
Is not hard
Apparently, neither is being stupid
The choice is yours
Stay faithful
Or stay single

Realize you have no time
You are running out
Every single day that passes
Is one you will never get back
Start making your dreams come true
Start living
And stop just existing
Start making yourself happy
Start making friends
Start being yourself
And stop hiding who you are
Before you know it you will be dead
Realize you have no time
Realize you only have death
That is the only certainty in life
Start living
Because you already started dying
And you have no time

love is the only thing
that can **** us
girl, it will **** you
and it will take me with you
if we let it
if we get weak
if we give up
it will **** us
because love doesn't care
it has no mercy
and we can't have any either
lets make it work
today
tomorrow
the day after
the week after
until we are old and grey
and then, and only then
does love have our permission
to take us away

somewhere along the lines
everyone became a stranger
or became an enemy
i'm not good with people
never have been
never will be
which makes it hard
for me to keep people in my life
but i don't force anyone to leave
they find their own way out
and they never ever return
which is fine by me
because i still have myself

I think we are all *******
******* from the moment we are born
We are not prepared for life
We do not come into life with directions
We come into this world with a name
A naked body
And most of us
Enter this world with tears in our eyes
The irony

i needed to make a change
i was doing it all wrong
the fights became frequent
every other day it was something new
i realized that most of it was my fault
in fact, all of it
was my fault
so i made a change
i stopped making excuses
stopped telling her what i would do
and started doing it
for her, and for myself
i realized that we wouldn't make it
if i continued to treat her like that
if i continued to sink our ship

It took me
A long time to realize
Looks are not everything
They mean very little
Looks should attract us
But they should not
Be the only reason why we stick around
Their personality
Is everything
Their character
Is everything
Their morals
Are everything
How they act towards you
How they act towards others
How they act when they are alone
Whether or not they say
“please” and “thank you”
Whether or not they sacrifice for you
Compromise with you
Whether or not they would move a million mountains
Just for you
Those should be
The reasons why you stay
Not whether or not their face
Should be plastered on the cover of a magazine

The sun no longer shines
Maybe it does, but it does not shine in my world
My world is filled with dark days and darker nights
The moon still goes to work at night
It has not left me yet
It still follows me around like it did when I was little
But the sun refuses to shine anymore
I want to get out of this darkness
Before it consumes me for good

When I was young
My parents introduced me to a man
They said
He would help me do wonderful things in life
They said
He would always be there for me
They said
I could always talk to him if no one else was around
They said
I could ask him questions and he would always have an answer
Or I could just tell him how my day went
As I got older
I realized he would never answer my questions
Even when no one else was there for me
He was never there either
Do you know the man I am talking about?

there is very little
in this world that i care about
this is my reality
she is my moon
my family are my stars
my dreams are as big as the ocean
and i shine like the sun
my thoughts are like planets
gigantic and light years away
i never see them
but i know they are up there
i just know it

i woke up
looked at my calendar
looked away
looked back
where did september go?

she affects me
like music does
i get the same feeling
while talking to her
that i get when
i put my headphones on
and drift away
never to return

You never
Get over someone
You learn to live
Without them
And accept the fact
That they are never coming back

on this day
i don't know what to do
it is a day i spend thinking
about my life thus far
the mistakes i have made
the people i have pushed away
the nightmares i still see at night
wondering if there is anything more to life
at this point
i am numb to the people around me
and numb to myself
i don't look in the mirror for too long anymore
i am content just knowing i don't know anything
content knowing i have a heart keeping me alive
and content knowing one day it will stop beating
until that day comes
i hope my numbness goes away sometime
before they put me in the ground
with the bugs and the berries

this song reminds me
of the day i left her
all the same emotions pour out of me
when the beat comes alive
i hold back tears
though they are fighting to be free
the last time i left her
i almost cried
but i couldn't let he see me like that
no, no, no, no
i couldn't let her see me break down
i had to be strong for her
even though my heart stopped beating
and i forgot how to breathe