I have pinned you down to the kitchen floor,
I want you to writhe and wriggle,
Beg me for more,
I have tied you up to the dancing pole,
I want you to fight and fidget,
Slave; play the role,
I have whipped your back in the bedroom warm,
I want you to scream and slither,
Destroy your form,
I have spanked your *** ‘neath the shower flow,
I want you to cry and crumble,
Enjoy each blow.

Hours, days and weeks,
Maybe even years,
Of writing down my joy and pain,
My ecstasy and tears,
Far too long have I grown so distanced,
An outsider looking for the next phrase,
Wanting to be accepted,
But denied the magic of praise.

Still I sit and write,
Words that I concoct,
Things that I never dare to share,
That, in my heart, stay locked,
Those utterances and emotions,
They’re never heard even when I pray,
Yet still I take this journey,
Roads of writing my life away.

Songs, lyrics, poetry,
Prose, sonnets and plays,
Just watch me try,
Endeavour to write my life away.

*****,
****,
*****,
C*nt,
Cow,
Stab me,
Slice me,
Abuse me,
Violate me,
Yes, you violate me with your xiphoid words.

Yield,
Give in to me,
Yield,
Just say yes,
Yield,
Come to see me,
Yield,
Hold me close,
Yield,
I’m good for you,
Yield,
Good for me,
Yield.

You covered me with the tenderness that flowed from your soul,
1 gentle stroke and warm embrace,
I was ready to begin the pace,
No race,
Take it slow,
Never go,
Sleep in bliss,
Nightly thrill,
Drill,
Drill,
Feel and hold,
Be and unfold,
Open wide,
I'm inside,
Woman of life,
Creating life,
You covered me with the gentleness that dripped from your bowl.

You came to me on an autumn day,
When the leaves browned under foot,
Found me at my weakest,
Mourning every morning, noon and night,
Took me to your castle,
You held my innocence tight.

Frosted rainbow high upon the clouds,
Static above your castle,
You rain inspiration,
Sweet darling you bring me to the light,
As darkness stole my world,
I am humbled in your sight.

My heart is aflame,
It beats out your name,
In the dark I hear it calling,
I ask you to love me,
And you take my hand in yours,
And draw me to the doors,
You lead me to your palace and make love to me at night,
We travel through the planets, exploring unique sights.

This youthful heart is scared,
Scared to grow up and run free,
Every time it times to stand alone,
People attack with painful love,
My youthful heart is chipped,
Smashed,
Broken,
Crushed by the deceit and hurt,
I want to force my heart into the dirt,
Start again,
Refuse to feel,
It’s the only way to heal.

You’ve forgotten me already,
Cast me aside,
Left me outside in the pouring rain,
And coated yourself in pride.

You’ve forgotten me already,
Left me to rot,
Made me feel as though we were nothing,
Turned me into what I’m not.

You’ve forgotten me already,
Broken my heart,
Left me outside in the falling snow,
And forced us to grow apart.

You’ve forgotten me already,
Forgotten me,
Yes, you’ve forgotten me already,
Forgot what we aimed to be.

Climbed and climbed,
Strived and strived,
Struggled to become who I am,
Struggled to decide what I wanted,
Struggled to be myself,
Found sickness and wealth,
Lost the wealth and found deteriorated health,
I starved myself,
I hated myself,
Put myself through strife,
And found the zenith of life.

Shut down,
Switch off,
Zone out to make it easier to understand,
That the closing of this chapter,
Is the parting of our hands.