Pain-A-Full

Pain-A-Full Jun 2015

Here's a poem
For the one I love
That her time
Is the thing I can't have

I wish to be close with her
Spend her precious time together
But there are limitations
So as suspicions

Time spent w/ her is limited
It is because she has her best friend
Bestfriend always seems to be jealous
And I don't want her to be furious

I don't want to break a friendship
And I'm also tired of this jealous ****
So I'm going to walk away
Volunteer myself
Step aside
And let my happiness pay

Pain-A-Full Nov 2014

Can We?

So close
Yet too far
This feeling I can not hide
It's tearing me apart

I'm longing
I'm missing
You my dearest comrade
Could I bring you back?
For now, I think I can not

What happened long ago
Can we forget it? Forgive?
Can you still be sweet?
Can you smile at me?
Can you hug me?
Can you laugh with me?

Coz everyday I see you
Everyday I miss you
Everyday it hurts
Can you be like before?
Can WE be like before?

Same with my poem entitled awkward

Pain-A-Full Nov 2014

AWKWARD

Is what an ordinary person feels
When his/her crush is around
Is what you feel when
You did some mistake
But this is what I feel when I told you
You’re my crush

I thought you’re already comfortable with me
I thought we’re friends
I thought it’s okay
I thought it’s not a big deal
Me having a crush on you
What happened?

You’re not talking to me anymore
You’re only talking to me
If I’ll ask or talk to you

Having a crush on you wasn’t a big deal
Why did you sacrifice our friendship?
I was impulsive to tell you
I was brave enough
Because you’re my friend
I thought it’s okay..
I thought.. I thought..
That was all I thought
And now..
Seeing you and being with you
Is totally awkward

Dedicated to BS

Pain-A-Full Sep 2014

PALabay

It was the perfect chance
To talk to someone
But I let it slipped

My heart skipped a beat
Feeling guilty, feeling shy
I urged my tongue to say “Hi”
But my tongue hid
And let you passed by

My eyes followed you
As a friend not a foe
You passed by with no “Hi”
Leaving with no “Good bye”

Pain-A-Full Sep 2014

THE SUNSET, THE SKY AND THE SEA

My favorite sunset shows off
Its colors of yellow and orange
Combined or not It made a sign
For you gave me courage
And changed me to be fine

Next above is too high
You remember my favorite sky?
It has the clouds of black or blue
While some have the shade of indigo
But it supports rain
A sign from the sky
That for a period of time
You made me cry

Last is the sea
To remember what i told you
I won’t leave you nor flee
But I felt worthless like the sand
You torn me to pieces
Like grains flowing from your hand

My three favorites may say
That you’re a precious friend I can’t pay
Too bad
We went to the part of the sea
Where knowing you
Makes myself pity

//for a friend

Pain-A-Full Apr 2014

Good Bye

What’s good in good bye?
If you’ll leave someone behind?
Will you tell them the truth?
Or bring it all to your tomb?

You’re always nice
For them you are their guide
Do they know something about you?
That you already have your due?

For others you are kind
Some misinterpret it
And talk about you behind

Why are you so kind?
Do you want to leave them crying?
While attending?
To your Burial
‘till death you kept it a secret
Because you don’t want to say the word
You don’t want them to pity you
You don’t want to leave
You don’t want to say Good Bye

Pain-A-Full Apr 2014

Time Machine

If I have a Time Machine
I would like to go back
To the memories you’ve left behind
Together with our sweetest smiles
I shouldn’t have said that
Those words that made you mad
If only I knew
That my instincts weren’t true
I don’t have to hurt you

If I have a Time Machine
I would like to go back
To correct things that gone wrong
Can I replay?
For those sins
I would like to pay

If only I could have a Time Machine
I will bring the old us back.
I will bring you back