Please
Don't go
Stay with me
Just one more night.
And in the morning
You can leave
Right before
Sunrise.

Here's the truth, the simple and honest truth;
I love you.
I would do anything for you.
I'd give up everything to be with you.
You have all of my heart in your possession.
But here's the problem, the heartbreaking and depressing problem;
You don't love me.
You couldn't care less about me.
To you, I'm just a waste of space.
And my heart your holding, you've crushed it to nothing.
And here's the solution, the one and only simple solution;
Without you, I have no reason to live.
It wouldn't take much, just one deep, penetrating cut.

I wish you wouldn't say things like,
"It must be nice, being naturally skinny."
I can hear it in your voice, your envious of this body of mine.
But even though I know better,  I respond along these lines,
"Oh thanks. I'm just lucky I guess."
But that's so much more than just a white lie.
If you only knew how much I wanted to die...
With every bite of food consumed.
If only you knew, not to assume.
You can have this dying body of mine,
Because I'd trade it anytime.
You can discover how it feels, this need to be skinny,
And you can have my mother, who will always complain that you're not pretty.
And then you would understand how it feels,
When people say things like,
"It must be nice, being naturally skinny."

I remember the last night we were together,
Every detailed ingrained into my memory.
You were running late,
And I was down by the dock waiting.
The sun had set and the coolness was creeping in,
But I didn't mind.
I would have waited an eternity for you.
But it wasn't that long before you showed up.
And even though I don't want to admit it,
I already knew something was wrong.

When I tried to hold you hand,
You pulled slightly away.
It hurt, but that was okay.
You were here with me anyway.
There was silence between us,
And all I could hear were the bugs buzzing madly,
As if they almost knew too.

After awhile, you eventually said what was on your mind.
You apparently wanted to move on,
Which meant leaving me.
I vividly remember that moment.
My heart faltered but my face remained blank.
I refused to show you my pain.

We argued a bit, and I told you to leave.
I think I may have said you meant nothing to me.
But I didn't expect you to just nod and walk away.
I guess I had hoped you might have stayed.

That was our last night together,
What a sad thing to remember.
And with that memory racing through my head,
How can I come to terms with the fact you're dead?
You died that very night of our fight.
Apparently you were distracted they said,
Because you ran the red.

And I can't decide what hurts the most.
Knowing it was my fault you were at that evening,
Or knowing that at the end, you had wanted to leave me.

I hope I never forget this,
The feeling of your kiss.
It's more than just the softness of your lips,
And the taste of your sweet breath.
It's so much more than just swapping spit.

Your kiss sent tingles running down my spine,
A feeling rather divine.
But your kiss, was so much more than this.
I can't explain how my heart would skip a beat,
Or how my breath would simply leave.
Your kiss put a spell over me.

And even after all this,
Your kiss is the thing I miss.
But it's not mine to have anymore.
I just hope she realizes how lucky she is,
To have stolen the one I adore.

I like knowing I'm good at what I do.
It's not really about me, it's more for you.
There is no greater treasure,
Than watching you embrace the pleasure.
And better still,
You'll never get your fill
Because I'm too good at pleasing you.
You'll never find another who does it like I do.

When I was naive, I thought I loved you.
I gave you everything I had to offer.
But immediately after, my illusions were shattered.
You explained the difference between making love and *******.
And when I asked what it was we were doing,
Your harsh laugh was answer enough.
But worse were the words that hissed through your beautiful lips.
"Don't be stupid. This is hardly even considered *******."
And with that, you slipped on your jeans and walked away,
Leaving me stunned and broken hearted.

Months slipped by since that day,
But I'm not that girl yoy left anymore.
You see, after you left me, I was broken.
I found comfort in the arms of others,
But to me, we were just *******.
I was just learning.

Then, just last night, you called me up again.
Asked how I had been.
If I still had a heart, I might have stuttered at the sound of your gorgeous voice.
But instead, I kept my cool and kept you talking.
You wanted to meet up, how shocking.

One thing lead to another, as it always did,
But this time things were different.
You were panting in satisfaction and you turned to me and said,
"Wow, that was fantastic."
I turned my cool eyes on to you, and responded with a hiss.
"Don't be stupid. That was hardly even considered *******."
I slipped on my dress and left the room,
And the first tears in years slid down my face.
For I knew how it felt, sitting alone in that room,
Stunned and broken hearted.