Starring at my food but I can not eat,
This amount of self hate I cant beat
I dream of blood pouring down
And wake up before I drown.
Laughter, from others filling my mind
Telling me to pick up my razor
And end my life
My razor, gently whispering
"I may be metal and have no heart
But in your life I have become a part"
So I'm killing myself
I cant go on
I'm killing myself
I'll end it all
Tonights the night
As a turn out the light
And tie the rope nice and tight
The room gets darker
And begins to swirl
I was only a young, depressed, teenage girl.

The Pain Keeps getting worse....The further apart we get the closer to the edge i become.. I try to hold on but I'm slipping...I can feel the distance between you and I. I've been losing sleep for a while now..Ever since that day...I've been scared to call or text when i need you, scared you're going to get mad...so I don't say anything...I let you sleep, peacefully...While is sit in the dark silently crying hoping i don't wake anyone....as i drown in my own mind...I can hear the clock ticking away my time before i snap. I whisper to myself.."I'm okay, this is okay, This is how i heal." When i reality. "No. I'm not okay. This is NOT okay.. this will **** me.." But by that time...Its too late. My mind is too messed up...I cant be saved anyway...

She's the girl with the broken smile,
She  the girl who does the extra mile,
She's the girl whose dreams are better than reality,
She's the girl whose really depressed in actuality,
She's the girl who always acts happy
Acts being the key word, she feels quite ******,
She's the girl who fakes the smile, each hour
But yet she's the one who cries in the shower
She's the girl who doesn't want to lie,
She's the girl who also doesn't want to die
But she cant find a reason to live
She's sickened by this ****** up society
And that young girl, happens to be me..

You said 'forever' the first time
And the second and the third
Now you're going for four
To break my heart
And rip my soul
And you expect me to stay whole?
But I don't know,
Should we try again?
Or are you going to watch me cry in pain
Once again to wipe my tears
And take care of all my fears.
Then ask for me back, pick me out of pain
to start the cycle over again?

Scars wake up
As the softest patches on your skin
Mixing gently with the colors pink and purple
Some raise like gentle hills
Reminding you of the hate you had towards yourself
These scars are there to remind you of the battles you've lost
And the battles you've won
And the battles you're still fighting
But you're still here.
You're still holding on.
Don't give up.

I opened up my notebook today, To find an anonymous note.
It read:
'Nobody wants you here. You are worthless. You are Nothing. Everyone hates you. Death is your best option. The world would be better off without you.."

Are they right?
The only reason I'm staying is because of the people., I don't want them to be sad.
But if everyone else wants me gone then maybe I should leave.
The world would smile more without me.
I'm just an annoyance.
I'm a **** up to society.
Born in the wrong time.
I don't need to be in this place.
Nobody could tell by just looking at me but I'm falling apart
Everyone would soon forget the girl they once knew.
I guess this is the end.
0:00
My time is up..

As standing on an edge,
I fear the walk of wait.
I drifted towards a ledge,
to take me to my fate.
You once said I could fight all,
and measure could not stop.
I gave my trust so I would not fall,
and looked at you on top.

It wasn't long till misery danced,
Your promise I could not love.
My heart cried to leap and prance,
I cannot live beneath your ****** glove.
I feel we left behind our ties,
To seek another hand.
All you gave were broken lies,
No fall to break my land.

Forgive me now As I walk away,
Hearts can't hurt that sad.
I'll hold you with me for all days,
I'll find you soon to forgive all that's bad.