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Feb 2014 · 422
lonely again
Sierra Amanda Feb 2014
and my veins
were begging me to quit
trapping me from underneath
my ivory skin
making their way through my body
like ropes being tied tightly
around me

and as you trace them softly
i finally understood
as i looked into your steady blue eyes
that maybe there was
a little something
worth living for

and my eyes grew heavy
and i drifted off to sleep
waking up to find out
you were all an illusion
of what i longed for
in my desperate heart
but my boney knees
and tired eyes
will keep going
for you
I start to many of my poems with "and" and that irritates me, but I also like to think that it's read very fast, as if someone was spilling out their guts in a poem, not caring about grammar or the way things are phrased
Feb 2014 · 366
Are You Mine?
Sierra Amanda Feb 2014
and here we lay watching fireworks together
while i wonder if its the way we
hold hands delicately
that in this one moment
i'll remember forever
as i pay more attention
to the way the luminous colours
light up your beautiful face
than the shattering colourful stars
in the sky and
the way i hear your breath
getting caught in your throat in wonder and awe
after your favourite one
bursts again unexpectedly,
over the thundering noise it makes
leaving smoke in timeless space;
you do not realize how long i've
longed for moments like this or
moments with you in general
you do not realize how much
i doubted myself for you
ever
being
mine
tbh i only post my poems here to keep them safe from being deleted or something, it makes me uncomfortable that people may have read my past poems because i know i'm not the greatest at this but it is something i enjoy doing very much so.
Feb 2014 · 347
P u z z l e d
Sierra Amanda Feb 2014
I've spent my entire existence
trying to put together this puzzle
and I realize that maybe
there's a piece missing
and maybe that piece is you
but even if it is not
I know we'd fit into each others arms
perfectly

                   ( s.a.z)
idk
Dec 2013 · 467
nicotine
Sierra Amanda Dec 2013
i hold you between the tips of my fingers
inhaling the thought of you
burning brightly in my mind
like a cigarette.

(s.a.z)
I feel like this could be better..
Sierra Amanda Dec 2013
as i stare at the bruises on my knees
and wonder what you are to me
i realize it's all a metaphor;
you're a bruise to me.
only there temporarily
until i fall again
(maybe on purpose).

(s.a.z)
Dec 2013 · 457
I'm Sorry
Sierra Amanda Dec 2013
& I'm sorry
for never knowing the right things to say at the right times.
& I'm sorry
not being able express how I'm feeling out loud.
& I'm sorry
for not laughing at the right times.*
& I know
I'm not perfect but I wish I was for you.


(s.a.z)
Dec 2013 · 321
z a p
Sierra Amanda Dec 2013
you
were
the
lightning
that had
struck
me
and
left
a
beautiful
mark.

(s.a.z)
Dec 2013 · 391
I miss you
Sierra Amanda Dec 2013
your fingers braided promises into my hair
your touch raised goosebumps on my skin
your voice stuck in my head my favorite song.

                                                     (s.a.z)
Dec 2013 · 340
bug life
Sierra Amanda Dec 2013
i  am   just   a  little   bug
trapped in the web of life
fighting       to       escape
this         awful         mess
but   i  only  find  myself
getting   more    tangled.
      
                         (s.a.z)
Sierra Amanda Dec 2013
I   g a v e   y o u   m y   a l l    b u t  
a l l   y o u   e v e r   g a v e   m e  
w e r e   n i g h t s   f u l l   o f   s o r r o w
a n d   c o n f u s e d   t h o u g h t s .

                           ( s . a . z )
Dec 2013 · 321
shattered
Sierra Amanda Dec 2013
with every breath i take
i shatter my insides
more and more
thinking about what we
could of had,
forgetting
about what we did.


(s.a.z)
Dec 2013 · 389
cdrmasebl // scrambled
Sierra Amanda Dec 2013
26    letters    in    the    alphabet
cannot be scrambled into words
about  the way i feel about  you.

                                              (s.a.z)
Dec 2013 · 269
coffee and empty sighs
Sierra Amanda Dec 2013
do  you  think  about   me
as   much   as   i  think   of
you?  because    i    always
catch   myself   wandering
off  to thinking of you and
how  you  are so  beautiful
to me in so many different
ways and i  wonder if  you
feel the  same  about me or
if  i'm  just  another  one of
those    people    who     are
temporary    in    your   life.
                            
                                    (s.a.z)
r e l e v a n t
Dec 2013 · 356
p ı ɐ ɹ ɟ ɐ
Sierra Amanda Dec 2013
i'm afraid of many things.
like heights
and spiders.
i'm afraid of
the monster under the bed
and the ghoul in the closet.
but my biggest fear
is that one day
you'll get sick of me
(like everyone else has).

                          (s.a.z)
this one is a little old. i think this poem is no longer relevant, since i think he *has* gotten sick of me.
Dec 2013 · 417
illusionist.
Sierra Amanda Dec 2013
i keep thinking
of the would ofs
and should ofs
of what
we would of
and should of
had,
but i know
that none of those things
would have happened
because i'm too distracted
by the illusion
of what we could of had.

                     (s.a.z)
not sure if i like this one //
Sierra Amanda Dec 2013
i am in love
with every little bit of you.
to the outline
of your collarbones,
to every freckle
on your back,
to the intricate pattern
your veins make
under your skin,
to the cute dimples
that form on your cheeks
when you smile at something dumb i say,
to the sparkle in your eyes
when you talk about your passions,
to that one habit
only i have noticed,
to the way you hum
that one song
under your warm breath,
to the way you love me back
for all of my little things.

                      (s.a.z)
fave ♡
Dec 2013 · 387
get out of my head.
Sierra Amanda Dec 2013
you're stuck on my mind
like gum on the foot of my shoe.
        
                       (s.a.z)
possibly one of my favourite things my mind has ever thought of.
Dec 2013 · 396
i'm not alright
Sierra Amanda Dec 2013
you tell me not to be sad,
to think positive
and be grateful
for the things i already have,
but maybe it's good
too cry about it.
maybe it's good
to stay up at 3 AM
thinking about it.
maybe it's good
to run outside and scream
"I'M NOT ALRIGHT."
because i'm sick and tired
of fixing everyone else's problems
when i can't even fix my own.

(s.a.z)
Dec 2013 · 242
o n e, t w o, t h r e e.
Sierra Amanda Dec 2013
a lot can happen in a few seconds.
a heart can break,
a breath can be taken away,
a smile can form on your lips,
a tear can fall from your eyes,
but in my seconds,
i fell for you.
          
                    (s.a.z)
please be mine.
Dec 2013 · 278
permanent,
Sierra Amanda Dec 2013
the scars on my arms
left bruises in my mind.

(s.a.z)
send me that ambulance //
Dec 2013 · 233
p r i c e l e s s
Sierra Amanda Dec 2013
you are as priceless
as the feeling i feel
when you are by my side.
                                                  
                           (s.a.z)
// one of the first poems i ever wrote //
Dec 2013 · 356
Losing Battles
Sierra Amanda Dec 2013
each scar on your body
tells a story
of the battles you fought
in your head
and sadly did not win
but don't forget
that sometimes
you'll lose the battle
but one day
you'll win the war.
                              (s.a.z)
inspired by future // paramore
"Lost the battle, win the war."
Dec 2013 · 269
Open Your Eyes
Sierra Amanda Dec 2013
you've become a professional
at harming yourself
in more than just physical ways.
first published poem // 14/12/2013

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