Sℳǐζξ

Sℳǐζξ Mar 2014

She'll wait up all night just to hear your voice
She'll rub your back and kiss your neck after you get home.
She tells you the things you want to hear
And
All the things you need to.
She loves you so very much and she will
Always need you
No matter how bad the fights get or
The arguments.
She'll always come back,
Because your the only one she wants
To hold.
So please don't push her away
Just hold her
And tell her that everything will be
Okay.

Sℳǐζξ Mar 2014

just remember....

Everything I say
You seem to take the wrong way.
I love you
That will never change
No matter what I say.
Just remember
Your my one and only
And the only man
That will forever hold me.

Sℳǐζξ Feb 2014

his demons.

I love a man
Who wants to **** me.
So he can be happy
And not feel pain
I fear is his motive.
He says that he loves me
But how can that be.
After his hand meet my throat
And he started to squeeze.
I realized
I've been running from
Reality.
His sweet make up words
That smile he has
Are all just to cover up
All his demons he has.
This man scars me to death
But I can not leave him.
You see I love his man
And every part of him
Even his demons.
His demons are strong
But I will become stronger
Ill send them away
Because he is soon
To be a father.

Sℳǐζξ Feb 2014

girls.

Girls are called fat, ugly
***** and ******.
But nobody sees
What goes on behind
Closed doors
Some of us girls
Cut
Others use thing that are hot to the touch.
There's so many ways to give
Yourself pain.
Most of us cry some of us hold it in
But we all know
No matter where we go
It will just began again.
We are stronger than you think
But you have to remember
Everyone brakes.
So if you see us as weak
Or maybe even disgusting
Because we inflict harm on our selves.
Just keep in mind
We didn't want this
Not at all
It's you nasty rude
Ungrateful
People that brought
Us to fall
If you find happiness in this
Well then bless your soul
Cause I think God will look down on
You not us
But you for braking our souls.

To all the girls, like me that have been treated like ****. Don't believe anything people say to you your perfect the way you are.

Sℳǐζξ Feb 2014

show me.

I've only ever ******
So I want you to show me how to make love
All those before you meant nothing
I'd be a liar if I said any of us had
Something.
But you my love are simply bliss
You showed me that through your kiss.
So my darling make love to me
And prove to me that we're meant to be.
Look deep into my eyes
Move slowly toward my tights.
Kiss my lips and show me all the passion
That you hide.
Whisper sweet words to me
Before you become a part of me.
I want to know your truly in love
I want to be your only one.
If you can promise me this I'll bless you
With saying I do and a kiss.

Sℳǐζξ Feb 2014

him.

He's followed me my whole life
He watching me sleep at night.
He says he's my guardian angel
But he's so dark and his wings have rough angles.
He only comes at night
And he shows right up when I'm in a fright.
My dreams told me he's bad
But then again he looks so very sad.
I offered to be his friend
And though he has no face I swear i saw him grin.
Now he scares me and won't go away.
I should have listened to the Lord.
This demon is feeding on my breath
Becoming strong.
Once he changed my shadow
And I ran all the way home.
Scared he would come inside
If no one was there.
I locked the doors and ran.
My breath was heavy and my body was tired.
When I awoke I was no longer home
I was in his house.
As I look around I see him in my body
Carrying it around.
He took my soul
And I took his place.
Now I'm powerless
But am getting brave.I'll have a new me soon
Till then look out your window
You'll see the shadow man.

This isn't very good at all. But it's pretty deep. (:

Sℳǐζξ Feb 2014

the willow tree.

What can I do other than cut.?
It seems nothing gives me the same rush.
Seeing the blood drip from my hand
Makes me wonder if it's time.
But then my fiance comes to the rescue
And tells me everything
Will be alright.
I want to believe him
But you see I can't.
I've been lied to my whole life
So why take a chance.
He'll hold me and whisper sweet things in my ear
But with him behind me you see
I get this great fear.
I've been through it all
I know what it's like to hurt
I knew the moment
That pervert went up my skirt.
Now I'm afraid of every man.
And this is the reason
I am who
I am.
I want to love him but it's hard
Even though he can see passed my scars.
I still get the chills when he touches me there.
And this I feel is my fault
Cause I wasn't aware.
I didn't know what that man was doing
Nor why.
Now I know and
I hide inside.
He haunts my dreams
And because of this I will not sleep.
Now let me be.! Please have mercy upon me.
This is it I can't take anymore.
This will be the last day I walk out that door
And to the willow tree I will go
Not to sit and read
But to be hung by a rope.