Find me a word that lies in between,

In between momentous and rigorous,

Petite and mean

Soft spoken yet sharp find me the word that fits in

Of this tragic or comfort, sweet loss or bitter win



A word in between, is it too much to ask?

Between gratitude and grief,

A deadly carass

Profound yet untold, this word hardly spoken

The word in between

Fixed but still broken

Remember when I told you I wasn't sure?
I was dying to tell you I would bet for more
Remember when I said I didn't know?
I was scared to give it a show

Yes I was the best at covering things up
Too scared that things might endlessly ***** up
How could I be so rude to give you half bake?
When all you deserved was the finest cake

Remember when you asked me if I ever cried for you?
I told you I couldn't remember
Silly, another lame cover
When I have, a tenfold times
But you wouldn't know that, no not ever

You gave your approach,
But I withdrawn mine,
You lended me your hand
Yet I said I was fine

Now I've lost my balance
But no I don't want your help
Stuck in this fighting stance
With one leg paralyzed, the other in yelp

A void I'm trying to fill
A revelation waiting to spill
But no I'm good and done with it
A lethal confining paradise and I'm in it

So here's my suffocating therapy of lines
'I like you no more' would always combat the rhymes
For if wanting you questions being wise,
Believe not of all, these are my white lies.

Hakuna Matata,
It means no worries
Hakuna Matata,
Aligns many stories.

You and me,
Was my favorite 'We'
For by distance
Strengthen in hope and assurance

Hakuna Matata
My love, I'll remain
This shouts only for thy name.
For worry endangers you less,
Cause I stood with loving you best.

I love you
Hakuna Matata,
My heart with yours only to rest

Tricky how fairytale plays 'wannabe' with reality,
When one's hoping and dying at the same time is of certain insanity,
Whatever are the odds that makes me question endlessly,
Should I or should I not deliver my words directly?

Oh dear pumping one, why must you speak ever timidly?
Do you fear to hurt the one offering loyalty?
Or do you fear to bet that game of uncertainty?

You just can't feed your mind that he might be,
The one worth risking for or another blame in me,
I just can't play someone else's honesty,
When I've been a victim of the same scene of cruelty.

I let one circle my mind, now look at me
Torn in pieces for believing something so real but was soak in fallacy,
Now I've tasted the bitter sweet fruit of penalty,
How my heart has been through much casualty,
When all I did was to love an unforeseen tragedy,
Now trapped in turmoil, a prisoner imprisoned but free

So forgive me if I've closed the curtains that once welcomes brightly,
For to feel numb was to escape the possible possibility,
Genuine or not are one's confession for me,
I'm just too wreck to try again,
I'm scared so I'm sorry

You engrave my thoughts with bliss,
Or atleast that's how I could remember...
Reaching possibilities missed,
With this downfall, will I ever conquer?
Ragged is it to define this hope,
Torn or overworn prayers tied upon a rope,
To reach this silent prayer spoken timidly,
A return hopelessly longed, do grant this aching mercy.

What must be done?
For consciousness to shake this insanity,
What could be done?
To delude the mind was a temporary remedy.

If to shut my eyes would blind these senses,
For a moment or two, grant me great slumber or rest,
For all this hope would fall in vain,
And not a single token could minimize the pain.

To endlessly want you is a drug that's fatal,
Paralyzing senses, a longing that's crucial,
So here's a piece I hope would steal a bit of your time,
For the FIRST of my five subjects,
These lines of my rhymes.

What was it for?
When you found me in pieces, you came knocking on my door
What was it for?
When my world was swallowed with silence,
You became my powerful roar
What was it for?
When I was an inch to being a mute,
You became my words, deep yet unsure
What was it for?
When you offered your shoulders, my favorite haven,
I couldn't ask for more
What was it all for?
When little by little, your presence became my ecstasy, wanting for more.
But then you slipped away..
That string you were attached, the same string in me tore
How blind could I be?
To fall for your lines when they were all empty?
What was it really for?
You made me fall, but it wasn't you that caught me but the floor.
Now tell me, what was it all for?
Where was it all for?
You fired up my hope
Now not only my eyes but my heart is sore.
All the walks, the talks, the laughs, the endearments, the teasing, the good mornings'
What was it all for?
When all along it was never me,
But her you adore.
You left me hanging,
You left me hoping,
My mind shouting "please no more!"
Yet my heart still asking,
"What was it all for?"