I am angry
          (that I love you,
           that you don't love me
           that these brownies are too sticky)
And that's
what I finally yell about.

You wrap an arm
around my shoulders
and
against reason
I melt.

I feel better.

My head rebels against this
But my heart sings
tells my body to relax and
          (you walk away,
           careless
           fancy-free)
sink into your

absence.

I bared my heart,
love spurted everywhere.

You watched it splatter on the grass,
apologized.

You didn't want it,
not that kind.

I almost took it back,
but the ground was already soaked.

We walked away,
leaving vermilion footprints.

You asked for endearments,
I don't know why
When I speak your name,
it sounds like
       darling
       dearest
       beloved
       never leave me
love

Your name
       in my mouth
Your face
       to my eyes
Your voice
       in my ears
I've got a sweet tooth
       honey.

Stop.
talking to her,
Stop.
dreaming of a life,
Without me.