I’m so close
So close to call
To text
To drop all morals and patience
To let go and do the  unthinkable
To kiss and caresss the forbidden
To envoke in this mission
Of risk and passion
To feel flowers bloom and bees sting
To feel the flow of my imagery
Forget the past and present
To focus on the inside between my *******
To retract time and take a leap
A leap of youth and secrets
Little lamb don’t follow me
I’m going into the den of mischiefs

I swear I can’t take this pain no more
You chase me and play so much
You’re cold like the seeping wind tru a windows draft
Comes so smoothly such a painful raft
This pattern changes my mood like shades of black
I don’t know what to feel because you always come back

I miss him,
Maybe a little maybe a lot
When the sun shoots its rays against my skin
The softness of your fingertips runs wedges over my hips
I hear you call me and the green overlooking our vision's horizon
Memories that float over the weather’s waves

I was your shoulder
When you leaned over and you touched me
You leaned over and you pressed me
Pressed against me and you told me
You wanted to be here with me
So we fell asleep like this was routine
Don’t preach to me
The words you lying
Nothing was the truth but the times you were *******
I hate what’s happening,
Your actions confuse the hell out of me
But I knew this all along
Im ashamed I fooled myself

throbbing
pumping
dragging
jumping
slapping
kissing
touching
teasing
pulling
*******
patting
grabbing
biting
looking
slipping
sliding

Memories of you haunt me in my dreams
its like demons in my sleep
I cannot wake up

You call me and you see me
you kiss me and you tease me
you tell me that im yours
hold and caress my hips
taste the lips i bring
you love me till im sore
this feels likes a bliss
we roll and swirl
we twirl and we swerve
against all our clothes
souls that collide and mend together
you elevate me like a feather
come inside my wonderland of pleasure
than we come down and lay forever
i get up and go
your mind gets up and go
now this is over
and im gone

The level of insecurity I feel doesn't let me sleep
Eating seems so meaningless
The black clouds follow me
The flaw is all I see
I tap back into my memory
Where I instinctively thought you were into me
Than I recall all the mistakes I made
Then I remember all the ugly days
Then I think the chances he would stay
I wish I could go back and erase it all
Pick up my dignity and carry on
Close my legs and my eyes to you
I feel like a sculpture in plain view
No soul no life just beautiful in light
There's no words that could describe
The hole you left inside
Used like a newspaper article
When the day is over it is no longer useful
The flaws is all I see
Me and my flaws you could not keep
The bad is what haunts me
You just left me.
Never answered me

I don't know how to loose you
I try to move on but i take two steps back
i feel like you take the light out my soul
the shine in my eyes
i feel like im loosing myself when im with you
how can i try to loose you without loosing myself
can i get through this or should i give up
i ask myself everyday if i should stay
because no one should be in something like this
someone making you lifeless
the more i stay the more you live
take every inch of my beauty
using up the only thing that's left of me
i cant get back the times with you
i cant rewind the tears
my head is full of deep hurtful experiences with you
like demons in my dreams
my thoughts are haunting
i regret you with every inch of me
feeling like im caught in a web where im not suppose to be
i should have stayed away and learned my lesson
but the desires inside of me kept me restless
yearning for more of you
i regret this

I feel like I'm doing something wrong when I see you
Like I'm deceiving myself when I kiss you
Am I setting myself up for disaster
I feel like there are so many clues that want me stop
I feel like my pain is pleasure when your on top
When you hold me Is like it’s the last time
When you play with my hair and the TV on
You tell me I'm crazy and I just turn around
I play with you and kiss you all over
Everything seems so natural and unplanned
The history between us has me prisoner
What can I do to set myself free from this
The damaged cause has hailed over my destiny
But I cant move forward with you inside of me
I could say no but than I change my mind
How can you love someone so bad it feels so good
How can something so good for you be so bad
I wanna love in the free world
Where there is no beginning or end
Just life and love between us
Where worries don’t exists
No judges no sins just us and ever last
Is that to much to ask
I wanna cry when I'm so happy with you
Because in the future this cant be me and you

How I love to be in his arms
Caressing his every inch of skin
Gently kissing his lips
I wish this moment could never end
We could lay here and be happy till the end
No worries no problems
Touching and kissing no sorrows
You touch my soul like a butterfly
Smoothly coming over me
Stabbing my love with your powers and potions

I walk up and wave my hair back
Take off my shoes my clothes I’m on my bare back
Let you maneuver your way around me and admire this soul
Gently I touch your face and take hold
Hold of what was what is that’s in front of me
Is this love or are we enemies
No more disguise or lost decision
Lets commit to our lustful desires original intentions
Come into me like you never left
I still had the power in 60 seconds
Why do you play with me what’s your message
To deceive me and runaway after such good pleasure
No explanation
No dedication
Pure humiliation
What is your reason?
I thought this was mutual

Powdered clouds around these people I don’t really like
Take another smell of that white
My mental thoughts are going left but really I’m just wrong
But two wrongs don’t make a right
So I sit there in spite
Of all the things you told me that night
What you hated and how I was regret in your life
You were always funny… that was a joke right?
So I take another hit
And lift into that high
Coming back down I’m reminded why I took that flight
Cause that purely white don’t hold me tight
I tell myself wow I miss them  
So I take another hit till tomorrow land
Take another lift and put you in that past
Right now we smelling the pure too fine
And right now you aren’t in my plans
Take another hit

I miss you dearly
The weather reminds me of your weary eyes
And the winds bring back in time
I look at the leaves falling
And my heart pounds and
I could hear you call my name and I remember you
And feel you in my embrace that
You bring me to this place
Than you look at me and tell me that your gone
but your body brings me to this lust
that I cant seem to take myself
out of this mysterious love
what is It I ask myself
it is real or just for fun
I wanna hold you tightly till I cant here you no more
Because I rather have you all to myself
I'm selfish but that’s what I was taught
By a man who doesn't know whats love