I sit here, still, because everything's turning too fast
Nothing lasts
A blast from the past and like that
I'm consumed
The room's too small and my emotions are too big
My heart's trying to escape its cage of ribs
Too much, too soon
I want to run away
Run fast and run forever
And let you chase me but never ever catch me
And I want to lie here unmoving
Stay paralyzed with the weight of you sitting on my chest
I hope I never see your face again
But when I do I'm going to kiss it
Kiss it tenderly
With this love that I shouldn't have for you
And kiss it goodbye
With my five fingers clenched tightly into a fist
And when it's over
When you're finally behind me
Never again to be with me or inside of me
When I blow out your presence
And the damage you've caused has faded into a wisp of smoke
And finally disappeared altogether
It is then that the spinning will stop
The world will slow enough for me to stand
And take my first wobbly steps without you