You say "Nothing can touch me now *******"
But really the people that know you
knows that the smallest thing can touch you
I know you say it because your mom walked out
You know that under your 'bad boy image'
Everyone sees
There is a 14 year old boy wanting
Wanting to cry out to his mommy
And get her back
But you wont
You dont want you dad or brother
To see you crack
You want to be strong for them
Because it's only the first woman
That's walked out on you
It's the second mother B has lost
Who know how many women
have left your dad
But you dont have to
Be afraid to show how you feel
Your image wont change
If you know who to crack around
You can crack around family
They wont care
Maybe thats all you need
To break down and cry
Just you, your dad, and brother
No one else around
so you are all on the same page

You want to die
I want to cry
You want to die
I sit there and lie

I lie to you
I lie to myself
Now i see
That you dont care

Its not fair
You want to die
And that makes me cry
As you die

As  you die
I sit there and lie
I say that you are still here
*I miss you dear

You want to die
I want you alive
There is no end to the fighting
No end to the lies
No end to the unspoken words
Behind my eyes

You're in a dark place
And I'm on my way
everyone is leaving
When I finally want to stay
Dead or Alive
There is never an end

End to the fighting
End the the lies
I want to die
So just cute my wrists
And cut them right

But if you can't
Then I will just slit my throat
If you don't want to see
Then look away
Because I'm not going to stop
I have to do it
It's the only way out

You went away
when I needed you the most
I sit here and cry
I want to die
No ones alive anymore


*
Neither am I.

One shale not live while the other survives
One can only live with knives
One is good one is bad
Whoever is closer to your dad
Dont let their looks desive you
As many people do
For you never will know
Now you must go
Only one will triumph
Don't ever humph
The other will go to hell
hearing never the sound of a bell
Returning only when beckoned
Ring the bell for only a second
They will come with a ******
For who read this first
For you will have nobles
But shale secretly give this to the other
It will be a sister or a brother
Then fend for your life
Within your hand a Knife
For one must die
So one may live

Deaths Mask is also known
As the heart breaker
The one left hurt
thinks their life is over
So they commit a crime
Their souls forever lost
They have gone and died
Or have ran to hide

THe world is Dieing
All becuase of you
You never thought of others
Or any living thing
You are killing them all
What have you done
What have you done
Why would you want to
Do what you did
How could you **** your friends
In doing that you have made
the world start to die

So I don't know how to tell you
I've felt like this for some time
I dont know waht started it
But I feel that way now

I odnt know how to tell you
Just how I feel
Every one says we would be good
That we are a cute couple

But I dont know how to tell you
We talk every day
Almost all day long

People say you like me too
Because of the way you act
I never realized it
But i guess that its true

The feeling that I have for you
I didnt think I ever would
But when you cross my mind i smile
I feel weak in the knees

I've never felt like this before
We talk all the time
But yet I still cant tell you
Just how I really feel

Why is there so much fighting
Between two people that love each other
How can you fight so much
If you love someone so much
I have always seen people
fighting around me
But I've never fought
With the ones I love
I've heard that they fight
For the make up ***
But I know its an excuse
I dont know why
You would be with someone
That you fight with
Over the smallest things
But I'm not going to let them touch me
That's what you do with the one you love
To me you should never fight with the one you love

I lay my head down to sleep
In my cozy bed
As I weep

Because I'm thinking of you
The first time your eyes met mine
I wondered why

Now I'm not fine
You broke my heart
And now we are apart

Now I must say
Goodbye
**

To my family
My friends
To you

MY lover
My friend

As a child
Parents tell you stories
All of happy endings

Manipulating our minds
To think our Lives
Could turn out like that

As we get older
We may change
But our minds stay the same

Still thinking we could have
That happy ending
Only a few really do

The rest give up
And forget about love
say forget a happy ending

They start on their
Sad lonely days
Of their endings

I hate the way you trust me
I hate the way you lie
I hate the way you say stupid things
I hate the way you didnt listen
I hate the way you said I lied
But all you do is lie inside

I hate the way you said you loved me
I hate the way you hugged me
I hate mostly everything If it reminds me of you
I hate that you were the first guy i cried over
When you said "We're through."

I hate the way you made me laugh
I hate the way you treated me
I hate the way that I hate you
It's not just hate I feel
It's hate with a passion
But you never know, things could change

We could still befriends
If you weren't such an ***
I hate the way I don't care for you anymore.

I didnt think she would be right
About how one small thing
could change the way you feel
About someone that you love
One small thing such as
spending the night together
can make you love someone much more
I didnt think she would be right
But then again she was talking
About something different
But we didnt do it
I wonder how much
I will love you
After that happens

I hate the way that your hair is in the sunlight
I hate the way that you are always happy to see me
I hate the way that you made me smile and laugh
I hate the way that you kissed me
I hate the way that you talked to me when i was blue
I hate the way that you got mad
I hate the way that you looked the day I only talked to you
I hate the way that you say I love you
But what I hate most of all is that I hate you
Not a little, Not even at all

I feel so helpless
Because You feel blue
we are thousands of miles apart

But so close at heart
You dont know it
But I know how you feel

So sad it cant be real
But it is
We have to act happy

For the ones we love
Our hearts broken
But we smile

Even though we dont mean it
We say we are happy
When we just want to cry

It's amazing
The thing that we will do
Just to see them happy

You may say
I dont really know
Just how you feel

But I do
Because
Im Just like you

We love them
They dont love us
They love someone else

We have to see them everyday
Smile and say
"I'm okay."

I need a Hero
To save me
when I'm falling

I need a Hero
To knock down the door
And catch me
Before I hit the floor

I need a Hero
To save me
When I'm dying

I need a Hero
To wipe away my tears
When I'm Crying

I need a Hero
To save me
When I fall

It's funny how we got this way
It was only two years ago that we met
And now we are together
Some people expected it
And others (like us) didn't
People said we were a lot alike
We didnt see it until
We both were on the computer
Every single day
We had no lives
We really still dont
But now we have each other
Things are more entertaining
It's funny how we didn't know
We didnt know just how much
We had in common
It's funny how we both knew
But denied it for so long
That we liked each other

You dumped me
You said you dont like me anymore
But thought it was boring

She broke up with you
I heard that same day
And I'll I had to say was
KARMA!!!

She changed you
You're not you anymore
All I have to say to that is
KARMA!!!

Kiss the bottle of poison
Before you **** yourself
To show that you love life
But you think dieing is for the best
Go ahead drink fast
So I wont feel so much pain
Knowing that you are the one
That took your life away
Kiss the poison
Show that it was your choice
The choice of sacrifice

I thought I was over you
Like a teenager getting over a childhood toy
My feeling still linger for you
Like the warms of a campfire put out

I see you every day and cry
Like a little kid that lost their favorite toy
I used to laugh when you'd say something funny
Like a child laughed at knock knock jokes

I used to smile when I saw you in the morning
Like a little kid opening a birthday gift
I guess I really cared for you
Like a little kid likes there first crush

There is such joy in the thoughts of you
Oh how I dream in my wake and in my sleep
Of how brief the instant of a snowflakes life
And yet how exquisitely it was formed
Of how the daisy of the field
Instructed me by her golden heart
What lesson the willow has taught
With her willingness to bend
How the lark has informed
Through his happy song
With all of this I have
shown myself love
From feeling for you

There are so many open doors
When there should only be one
I need to close them
I dont know how

Ive tried so many times before
Just to fail every time
I dont know
What one I want open

I dont know
Which ones I want cloesed
It's so hard
I might close the wrong one

I may close the one to happiness
I dont know which ones to close
And which one to leave alone
There are so many open doors

I need to close all but one
I wish I could see the future
I wish I could see the best
To leave open

But I'm just a mere mortal
And can not see the future
So I'm on my own
Which door has won?

You were there in the morning
But not at the end of the day
you were skip'n

I asked you not too
You said okay
But you did it anyways

You weren't there today
I wish you were
I think I like you

But only a little
I wish you wouldnt skip
It shows you may not always be there

You sit there all alone
No one around you
No one to talk to

You sit there and think
All you want to do is break
You lost the one you loved

They are never coming back
You see them together
They were your best friends

Now you are alone
Your life is at its end
On this lonely day

So you slit your wrist
And cut my throat
Left me there for dead

It begins to rain
you sit there and cry
no one can tell

A rain drop runs down your face
no wait that is a tear
You broke the only one
The one that really cares.

They always seem so happy
They never look sad
It's all very wacky
Because they are the ones
They have bigger problems
then the ones that look sad
They never let their emotions out
But in the end when you are fighting
about who has it worse
They will win
They have a reason to be sad
But they hide it away
They do the best they can
to act so happy

The Angel that knows all
Knows nothing at all
She doesnt know who she is
Doesnt Know she has it
The power
THe power to do anything
Anything she wants

The power is hers
But she will never find it
If she cannot find herself
She's the angel that knows all
Only one can help
She knows where she is
she knows where she lives
yet she doesnt know
until she finds herself

The day You die
My heart will die too
I couldnt live

Knowing you were dead
That you died in my arms
You blood all over me

Getting arrested
for something I didnt do
I bet I'll be hung

But knowing I'll be with you
I am fine, I will not struggle
I will not fight

I would not shed a tear
I would not let my soul go dry
When I die

I would not be sad
I will be glad
I will be with you soon

We can rest in peace
Together in this ground
side by side

I just wanted a guy
That had never smoked
Never drank, never had ***

To my surprise I got someone
That has never had a girlfriend
But I dont know if he has done anything with girls

He's never smoked or got drunk
He said I was the first girl
He's like so much to ask her out

New years rolled around
And he drank with friends
But didnt get drunk

The 24th came around
and he got high for the first time
I understand hes friends are stoners

I thought he was the perfect guy
Then all this happened
Many would say that now he wasn't perfect

But that's why he is the perfect guy
Because he is so perfectly imperfectly perfect
So he is still my perfect guy

I wear all these bracelets
To hide the scars
Not from knifes
But from pain

The pain of my lifetime
Every New thing
That happens to me
Means another one added

I Dont want too
I just do
I cant help that I love you
But now You are gone

And it's just me
I want to die
And you cant stop me

No matter what you say
I wont listen
I cant stop
I dont know how

Take away the knife
Before I do something
Something bad

Please just find a way
For me to get over you
For a way to be me again.

I always find myself
Thinking of you
I try and do something

And I find myself
Staring into space
Thinking of you

I close my eyes and see your face
I think about the last time I saw you
And the things that we did

I find myself thinking
Of when I'll see you again
I thought we would never be

I found I was wrong
So I find myself
Thinking of you

And how happy I am
Once I realize
Im thinking of you
I find that I am smiling

There are so many things
That I can choose from
I cant tell whats right

But in the end I know
I'll choose the one
The right path for me

Im only 16 years old
And I dont know
How much more parenting I can do

I cannot keep parenting my parents
It's my future
I have to make it what I want

I cant live by my parents rules
All my life
Soon I have to break away

And the time is now
It's my life
I'm going to live it to the fullest

They try and pull me closer
But really its just
Pushing me away

Three simple words
Makes you feel like
You are on top of the world

Three simple words
Makes all the bad things
go out of sight

Three simple words
Make you smile
Three simple words
Make the world a different place

Three simple words
That life is all about are
I Love You

These three simple words
always make you the happiest person alive
When you hear them said to you

You want to turn back time
so you can get away
and erase our memories
But little do you know
That if you were a good friend
You'd turn back time

To before Halloween
So all our problems
would go away
you could still be my best friend
If you just knew

I think you're selfish
You just want thing to go right for you
You dont care how we feel
We will miss you
If you turn back time

You get Roses
And you give out balloons
Teddy bears too

You give her your heart
While I'm in the background
I sit here and think

All I want to do is
Go insane

**** all the Roses
Pop all the Balloons
rip of the bears heads

Most of all breaking All of the hearts
The ones that Have love in them
The ones that have someone to hold

Someone to hold them
To smile at
Someone to laugh with

They All just make me feel so sick
I feel so sick
I just feel so sick

What does it mean to save your life
By putting down the knife
Does it mean to do something
By doing nothing
Does it mean to hurt someone
By killing the beat in their hearts drum
Does it mean to hurt yourself
To get out of something
No one really knows
Not until they need help
All these things have happened
Many times before
People have saved themselves
In many different ways
Some just dont know how
To save themselves..

What is Love
love is how you feel
For a blancket as a baby

Love is how you feel
For a Favorite class
In elementary

Love is how you feel
For your favorite band
In middle school

But when you get to High School
What is love?
Is love how you feel

For an outfit
A class
Maybe a Band?

What most people think
Is that love is
How you feel for another

But really it is Lust
In high school
All you should Love is life

Not another
You wont be together forever
By the end of year four

You will have loved many times
So you think
But its just Lust.

My mind is so confused
I dont know what to think
I cant even write

I cant make things clear
I've never had so much trouble
Trying to understand guys

But its different with you
I cant tell what you are thinking
Unless it's an insult

It's crazy how much I care about you
And to everyone else it may look
Like I like you just the same

As all the other guys
But thats not true
Its different with you

I dont know why
And I dont know how
I could like someone like this

But not quite sure I want to know
If knowing means
I will loose you

That's something that I dont want to do
I dont know why or how
I'm happy not knowing