I think he stole my heart on the first date
I swear it was his smile, no.
It was fate.

So gentle, but a little rough
He was strong, he was cute, he was tough.
Nothing remarkable, nothing extraordinary.
Just his voice, his eyes, the way he was carried.

A gentleman to the core
I was happy ever more
At least...
Til the day he went away
Something changed and he just wouldn't stay.

I asked why
But never cried.

I accepted my fate, my burden to bear.
He never loved me, he just didn't care.

I assumed it was me; i was wrong
I was unfit, i wasn't right, i wasn't strong.

But he disappeared and i understood.
I didn't like it, and i knew i never would.

He took my heart with him on the ship
Deployment is hard enough, not a fun trip.
It's even worse knowing that he didn't give a ****.

I missed him every day.
I watched the news and i prayed.
I didn't write, i didn't call.
I poured them strong and drank em tall.

I dreamt and i slept
I drank and i wept.

The day finally came when i would give in...
I just had to write him, i had to forgive.

We were friends, we were nice
But i knew that i would pay a price.
My heart torn in two
A half here, a half with his crew.

The feelings never left
My heart never grew
I was saving for him
I was paying my due.

He finally came home eight months to the day
He packed up his things, then he moved away.
The sailor took my heart, but left it at sea.
Not a half for him, not a half for me.

Not a day goes by that i don't dream of his name.
Every day every night, i miss him and his game.
Sailor jerry his ***, sailor jerry my shame.
I never stopped drinking, i never stopped til night came.

I loved him and he cared nothing for me.
I miss him and wish i'd be free.
Nothing will change. Keep things as they are.
I'll drink to his name, I'll wish on every star.

A sailor took my heart. He took my soul.
I wish i had known it would take such a toll...

red flags waving in the wind. caution lights flashing in my head. but i can't stay away, i can't say no. i feel like i'm chasing a dragon; a dream that never was; a vision that i can see, but not feel. i don't know what i would do if i never catch it...but something about the uncertainty keeps me running at full speed.

you wanna know what i think? i think i want to have my cake and eat it, too. i think you're in for quite the let down. see, i wanna raise the bar, but this time, i'm afraid you're as high as it goes. you're perfect in every way. so i'm afraid i just can't commit. cuz after you, where do i go? surely there will be an 'after you'. i'm the type that just can't convince you to stay, but i'll be here...waiting...you're perfect and i'm a killer. remember, i break hearts like candy canes. you're the one i want, but refuse to take. you're mine, i said so. i'm not ready to settle down, but i know i am. and you're my latest victim. don't fall for these eyes. i'm a terrible liar, but i'm getting better all the time. just wait a while, see if it's true. see if what's meant to be is me and you. cuz i'm not ready to commit to anyone but the wind.

hey baby, whisper something savage.
but don't fall for these eyes; they'll be your demise.
a look can lead to so much more,
but don't get caught up in this war.
love is rough and i'm quite deadly.

i break hearts like candy canes, you ready?

you're insane to think that you're the one
i'm in high demand and on the run
excuse me for the rhymin, ***,
but i got places to be, people to see
gotta find a way to have some fun.

so i write a verse,
i say some words,
i hop in bed
mess with your head

do what i say, not as i do
a hypocrite's heart is so confused
i'll do me and you do you
babe, get a clue,
i'm into you.

i break hearts like candy canes, you ready?

i'll pull your hair and bite your lip
take off your shirt, kiss your hip
i'll jump on top and hold you down
kiss your neck and go to town.

you like it, boy?
hands there, eyes here
watch our clothes disappear.

change it up, you on top
i'm beggin now, don't you stop
scratches here, a bite there
a love that only we can share

i'll stop before it gets too graphic
can't fill your head with all this traffic
remember, though, i'm waiting on you
to make a move, give me a cue

next time we're alone, don't be so afraid
i could be the best love you ever made...

don't you leave me with those words
you have the power to change me
just like he did.
but he chose not to and so are you

and now you're left with the burden
of a love never held, a love never lost

believe me when i say you aren't my only one
you're THE only one.
can i bring you home to father?
he'll tell me, "girl, you need to stop living in the dreams of others."

i'll tell you, "boy, if this is a dream, don't ever wake me up."
what did she do to you? why are you this way?
i ask because i can offer a life she can't.
i can give you a heart unbreakable.

i can do the things she won't.
and i'll trust you if you trust me.
just tell me what you want.
tell me you dream of me when you fall asleep.
tell me that when you shut your eyes,
you see my face and hear my name.

no one's charmed me like you, king.
just don't remind me of why i hate your type.

i fall for no one but the bottle
and when i do he sings your name
you're on my mind
don't leave me behind

i never had you, i never will
but it's nice to dream
and wish upon a star
to erase your scars

(i'll kiss your wounds
and trace your pain
with my tongue)

i want to taste your soul
salty , bittersweet
the ocean forged you
and i'm drowning in it

you, son of a mermaid
don't let me die
don't make me cry
but don't you lie.

if you want nothing, let me know
if you want something, tell me now
because i'm tired of ******* things up before they start.

but this is assuming you
wrote those words for me
if not...disregard this
and keep me dreaming.

don't you dare fall in love with me
i'm not the one
i'm not yours
there's so many things i'm not

but

i am the one on your mind
i'm the one you can't forget
i'm the memory you can't supress
i'm the nightmare that wakes you up
i'm  the dream that puts you to sleep
i'm the warmth you feel from the sun
i'm the secret you can't keep; the wish you can't make

i'm the lover you forgot
i'm the girl that changed your world
i'm the fear you keep inside and the anger you yell out
i'm the one for him, but not for you
i'm the one you need, the one you hate to depend on
i'm the girl you wish i wasn't, but i am

this is me.
you know me.
but don't you dare fall in love with me.

i was walking all alone in the dark
and around about midnight on the mark
i saw a big flash and looked up ahead.
a star was shot by in the deep blackest bed.

i thought to myself, what can i wish?
what do i want? what to accomplish?
i had no idea, no desires in mind.
so i wished for happiness for me to find.

not long after, i got to thinking...
how far in this life i must have come.
from when i was child chewing my gum,
i wished for a horse from dad and mum.

and when i was teen, so young and in love,
i wished to be together forever and never apart,
til death do us part in the stars up above
did it come true?
...is the white dove blue?

i should have known
that two and half years
and far too many tears
were only a loan.

i then wished for us
together or apart,
that we should find joy deep in our hearts.

today. now. tonight.
a few minutes ago.
a new man, a new light.
a new world that i know.

i see, i have everything i need.
i want for nothing.
not a horse or steed.
not forever, indeed.

i wished for happiness.
even though,
it already has me in its grasp.
and that, was my midnite wish.

(but i can't tell you because it won't come true)