I'm a closet romantic.
Constantly
Writing poetry
About beautiful boys.
But if you talk to me
Face to face
I'll deny that is this the case.

I can't let people know my weakness.

I know I can't have you but,
There's a temptation,
Within your stare.
I'm giving in,
I musn't,
I can't.
I'll just pretend the fascination isn't there.

If I could change,
What I've done,
So, it would be you and me,
I would,
I can't,
But I would.

Regret is the worst kind of misery.

I bonded with him over Skyrim,
Took it further with Star Wars,
And sealed the deal with Doctor Who.
I never thought those things could get me so far.

I never really understood what people meant by having a magnetic attraction to someone,
Until that moment our lips crashed together with such force I barely had any time to think.
When we finally drew it felt like some force was pushing us back together,
Making me want to go back and never leave,
"Those aren't meant to be apart."

I long for something I can write about,
A passion so beautiful that the words will just fall out.
I want to dance drunk in the rain with someone I barely know,
To just dive into something without worry or doubt.
I want to meet someone that will enchant me with their smile,
And take me on adventures like I have never imagined,
It may take awhile.
I may meet them a week from now by some twist of events,
I may meet them when I'm 23 fresh in the city without a clue where to go.
For all I know they could be Clark Kent,
They could be anyone!
But when we finally have found each other,
Oh the stories that will ensue.

Once I read this beautiful quote,
By an old married couple.
The woman of a marriage of 65 years,
Was questioned,
"How have you guys stayed together for so long?"
She replied with a sense of pride, "We come from a time where if something was broken we would fix it." I thought that was absolutely beautiful.
I do not understand the concept of divorce,
I believe that once you are married,
That's it.
Till death do us part.
Times have changed since that old couple fell in love.
People today do not know how to handle things if they get hard,
So they just give up.
They have forgotten how to fix things.
It is tragic how divorce has become such a common thing,
When marriage used to be so sacred.
So when the time for marriage comes for me,
I want to be absolutely sure I could live the rest of my life that person.
I will vow that no matter how broken things get,
How hard,
I will put in the effort,
I will fix them.