When I am left alone at night
I start to think
About how small I am
Compared to His creations

I start to think
Of all the people I ignored
My pride got (maybe still) the best of me

I start to think
Of my family

The tears leak out
Crying suddenly feels like
Breathing

They come out so easily as if
The times where I wasn’t crying
Were the times I wasn’t ‘normal’

The tears slide out
From my eye sockets
As I stare at my reflection
Or beat my forehead

I am alone
I am alone
I am alone
I am alone

When I wake up in the morning
I start to think
About how I am awake
He chose to wake me up

I start to think
Of the times where
I randomly received messages
From those I ignored
(Thank you for sending me messages)

I start to think
About my family
And how they’re in the big room
Eating breakfast (maybe waiting for me)

Suddenly a smile appears
On my tear stained face
And I remember

I remember

O Allah
O Allah

I am not alone
I am not alone
I am not alone
I am not alone

Despite all the things I’ve done
HE has not left me alone
Despite all the things I didn’t do
They have not left me alone

We are never alone