All my life
I had the desire
To look beyond the horizon
Wondering what it holds,
For everyone…for me.
I longed to embrace life
If only, all the restraints
Built through the years,
Would just fall away.
I did not like to be confined
In someone else’s interpretation
Of the world…
A place that has become
My fortress of my unfinished wishes.
I have reached the limit of my consistency;
For I cannot take
This kind of prison
That slowly withers me,
Until I even feel so hollow, so empty.
There are moments
That life is passing me by,
If I do not try to get hold of it,
I may be left behind.
I yearn to be like other people
People who have pursued their dreams
Who have taken the risk
Who dared anyone just a chance to
Express themselves.
Would I be like them someday?
I hope so…
To express who I might be,
Who could I be.
I feel my being,
Just pieces of what I want to be
It hurts me not to be free…
For freedom seems to entail a lot of things
Space to be yourself
To try out new things,
To be exuberate,
To feel everything in life
Hardships are bound to come my way,
I know…
One must learn to be strong
And to accept them…
“The only thing that feels worse than being stuck in a situation that makes you unhappy is realizing that you are not ready or willing to change whatever it is.”
― Ashly Lorenzana