Staring in the snow,
Watching the cold,
Feeling alone,
Cooing the crows,

I’ve seen death,
I’ve experienced betrayal,
I’ve isolated myself,
and I’ve still felt alone,

God gives me my purpose,
Alex gives me life,
But despite it all I live in strife,

God has spoken,
Destiny has laughed,
I’m alone for now,
But the time will come,

And god shall smile and all will be done.

Fear and sorrow
You'll wish it was a dream

Here's the truth
Changed

You cannot cage

You cannot name

Will never rain

End this truth
And turn the page

Let it rain

Won't cry

Can you believe
You're
Flyin'?

When we act out
We just want to be noticed
Saying, "Hey look, I made a snowman."
Or
"Hey look, I made a sand castle."

But like the little kid that she was
She never got attention

She was always ignored

So she gave up

Her family never loved her
They always said, "We love you honey, but we're busy right now."

Parents off to work
Youngest child
Home
Alone
Bored

No friends

Just me
Alone

Walking in a rich house
But
It *****

Emptiness soon filled the void
And the hollow formed

Being alone
With your hollow
Is scary

It makes you
Look for release
A steel kind

But not against the skin
No
That is a sin

But I did it anyway

And then
I thought of suicide

I cried out
But nobody took me seriously
So I stopped talking about it
And decided, "I won't even say I'm gonna **** myself, I'll just smile and say, I'm fine."

But when you are lonely
You go crazy

Because you're trapped in the same blood cell
And the knife is you're key out

You see
The reason people go crazy
Is because you lock them out
And hold them downn
And force them to do what you want them to do

Don't take this the wrong way
But Imm not free yet

I'm still. hollow

So I guess what I'm saying is Imm scared
Because I'm alone
I get really sad
I know you want me to be happy
But I feel sick again

I won't go on another rampage of poetfreak
But that's how I feel right now
I'm feeliing sick again

I'm not gonna post hate
But I'm just gonna cry it out

Because I know I hurt
And I can feel
Some people
Just won't let me be

Maybe they don't care about me
But I'm feeling quiiet right now
And I'm whining
I'm being a big baby

And I am trapped

How does one accept death?

I'm not gonna write here anymore
Because my heart is hollowed out
Lije a watermelon

I'm not gonna ignore people
I'm just gonna start writing in my diary again
I have personal thoughts
I can't share here


I just wish for this one wish
But it never comes true

*sighs

Life
Is
An ocean
Of  tears
Feeding on other
Peoples fears
Life
Is a river beating
Wild against a rocky cliff
Life is wondering what I did to deserve this
Life is the pain of the fallen
And the screams of the unheard 
Life is lost happiness and
Loneliness
Life is death and life is pain
Life is shame life is a short hard game
Life is why and life is what
Life is short
And life is long
Low is good or it is bad
Life is in you your mom and dad
Life is how you choosse to  live it

As I lay tears dripping down my face
As I lay the telling my self I can't go on another day
As I cry I wonder why
As darkness closes in I see the light hidden within
As death opens his arm I almost go happily
Then I think of the people who need me
As I hesitate he gets annoyed
Reaching out he grabs me by the hand and says its okay
I'm now in the arms of death it's a sweet emanrace
He whispers in my ear words I'm used to hearing everyday
Then it occurs to me that I just died to day
I'm smile at him and say yes now everything's okay

Held down tape over her mouth
Screaming out but there's no sound
Deep inside her tears all drown
***** by memories crushed by love
Now there's no going back she can't get enough
The pain the force but mostly the shame
With no one to blame but herself
She cuts again and again
Shattered heart broken soul
No place to go