My tears fall.
My fear are here.
My heart is gone.
My brain is lost.
No smile,
No enjoy,
No love,
And no thoughts.

Tear stains left on my face.
Blood stains on my shirt.
The feeling of lost and no hope.
All I do is give my all,
To only getting the slap in my face.
Now it's time to stay strong.
To look you in the face.
To fight pass all the bad.
Get my life all bad.
Here is to a good life.
Here is to a new life.

The sun still hangin' in the sky,
And the world is wide awake outside.
I know there's things we need to do.
All I want to do draw the blinds and say goodnight.
Oh won't you just let me pull you into me.
Go wherever all these kiss may lead.
Turn down the bed.
Turn out then lights,
And say goodnight.

Today, I got a phone call that would change my life forever. I was beyond excited. But only hours later I would looking at you crying because you didn't want this change. You loved living life in the fast line. You asked me to do something that would tear me apart. This change would pull us apart. When I see you now I put my head down and cry. I'll be doing this all by myself. I can't believe that you would do this. I can't believe that this change ran you away. I wish you would see what you are doing. I want you here. I want you to want this change.

The moment you wake up crying because you have kept something in for so long. Then you start reading and its like a flood. Just want this day to end already. It's just began. My eyes are full with water and my heart is  buried in all this pain. Just looking for the right thing to say. I have been quiet for so long about this. But the words only will buried my pain. I can't get out. The longing thought of this only buries me even more. The bigger the hole get the more I get lost. It's my time.? Is all this pain worth it.?