Gray walls
Gray minds
Searching for something
You'll never find
You long for adventure
But it's right there
You put me aside
But that's not fair
I wish for the same things
But I wish for a home
I wish for some things
That I've never known
And I want you to show me
That it's okay
Because you know what it feels like
To wish every day
And to hurt beyond hurt
As though I've done wrong
And my waiting is up
We have wished for too long

If you could do anything
Out of everything to do
What would you tell yourself?
That you're one of the few?
Who follows their dreams?
And listens to their heart?
Ignoring the truth
Avoiding the start
That shaped who you are
And who you'll be
You're not as rare
As you think you seem
And I'll tell you a secret
None of us are
You're no different
And nor is your heart

You know that feeling before your heart drops?
The slow concaving of your chest
And you want to **** and cry
But you're too hurt too afraid

And there's nothing you'll ever be able to do to forget
How badly that hurt, how terrible it feels to not be able
To take anything back
Yet it's allowed to take your happiness
Your smiles

**Everything