I'm hungry but there is no need to eat.
I'm blind but there is no need to see.
I'm sad and don't feel like being

here.

I want to drink
until I sleep
Stumble into oblivion
and cover my innocence with sheets

Find the truth through
my dreams
and not care if fog rolls over,
blinding reality

Do you ever get that fleeting moment of insanity
where you don't know who you are any more

and thoughts of passion
fog whims of reality

overwhelming your senses to decide
between freedom and security,
desire and education,
and you end up picking your future

in that moment of insanity?

She was a troubled girl,
always knew her limits
knew what the future had to hold,
knew who was in it

She knew she'd be okay,
a family, job, a home
the thought of no change
fightened her to the bone

so she decided not to have a future,
let everyone down,
decided that her regrets
would let everyone drown

Send a search party for my sanity
and call the police for my judgment
My morals on a milk carton,
you will never really find me,
relying on society

I'm not scared of death.
That's what scares
me.

A girl so ugly
how could a guy ever
love me

A girl so ugly
she doesn't even
love herself

I sit on the bus that rides on my road
Dreary with excitement
Shimmery powdered eyelids dropping
Smelling the Japanese cheery blossoms

And I nod and smile
As he asks to sit next to
Me,
And I listen

To the bus with exhausted roars
Wielding the weight,
To the drums of the earphones sitting next to me
Beating like his heart rate.

I sit and try not to listen, as I watch the sun
beams
Glistening across my golden eyelids,
Dropping,
Until I cannot watch,
Until I sleep

In and out of the thoughts
That invaded my guarded mind,
Off of the routine road with the wind
That I was drifting on all the time.

I sleep for the thoughts that are blocked by
The sounds.
I wake for the hope,
the reality of you driving me around.

Take me straight out of town
Away, afar
From this busy, unwanted land.
Take me away,
Do not worry about the scars

Take me away,
Off of this routine road
I will not suffer
Of this, I know.

I didn't talk to you in years
then a year later,
I'll never get to talk to you again

I remember the day
I walked into
school

and I sat down thinking
nothing about you
and a girl came walking in crying
"something devestating happened"

you, beautiful girl, tried  to stop the pain
you tied the knot
and hung out in the rain

you never thought
that your soul would be missed
and little did you know

I'm crying a year later
over your death wish

I think about you a lot
I think about your pain
I think about your name
your teeth and your future
your hobbies and character

and I think about you and me,
a relationship
you never let happen

I want to write a love poem
but I only love
this one crush who, years ago
was a boy
I want to share with you the dream
where he swept me off my feet
but now I want to share that moment
with him more
I'll confide in you the deepest secret
I've never kept
that I loved that man more
for who I thought he was
than what he turned out to be,
dare I say it
a boy

No one is listening
No one cares
Hear the beat
That you cannot bear.

My heart breaks
Love not an issue.
The mind speaks
What is covered by a tissue.

Can’t you hear?
Through walls so thin,
The opinion so true
That it’s sin

All there is
Is people judging
People
For killing, hurting
People
And criminals and
Presidents  and parents and children are
People
In this world where people
Judge
People