Well so much for trust
I got used as a prize, I feel broken
I saw so much in you, why did I not notice
All you did was play me, with that silly token, your heart
Would you actually care if you felt what I felt? Would you realize just how
How
How painful it is? I'm trying to...
Get over it..
Is this working?
Heart? Are you becoming whole again yet?

Come back to me love
Fly to me, soar into my arms
Gracefully, will you be my dove?
Look at me with all of your charms
Come back to me
every second that I have to wait
Is every second you and I can't be
In 3 weeks time, when you come back, I will not fill with hate.
No
I will embrace your every existence
Yes
Come back to me with no resistance

Sometimes I wonder in the pits of despair.
But then I pull myself out and realize the good.
But the good fades when I think about it again.
All I can do is wonder about the stupid hormones of a teenager.
And I try to block out all of these on coming emotions with the emotion of "happiness" and "I will always have you."
All of my friends...
These good relationships...
But then you too let the hormones take over, and I just fall into the pit.
This stupid pit of despair.
I hate depression and I never want it.
But sometimes all I can do is wait... wait for the others to grow and see... what it means to have me.
And I just need to accept it, not everyone has the same thought process.
So I see the good again... and I keep on its tracks... until I slip and fall and wait and climb all over again.
But thank you... Thank you all.

Tonight the brightest star caught my eye.I just kept starring at it. No, it didn't hurt my eyes. All it did was catch my attention. The star that my eyes caught sat there. It didn't change nor did it lose my gaze. All this star has done, is kept me wondering...

As a kid I wondered things that I now know.
I grew up in fire and ice, also loving snow.
My brother and I have always argued,
But never have had hatred.
loving my family will be forever
We will always be glued.
When very young I had but one friend
Everyone else I just wished would end.
One day I was pulled away from the life of Indiana
No longer was I in kentuckiana.
Felt sad
Mad
Bad
Trying payback I had.
eventually I realized that this life in paradise wasn't so bad.
more friendships along the way,
paradise was a yay.

Being a leader can mean loneliness.
But being a follower could lead to having no life.
When you're a follower, you have no story to tell.
On the other hand, being a leader you will meet someone along the way, you will no longer be lonely, and you will have experiences to share with the family you create.
Find your path and go on your way,
Because when that time comes, it will be a new day.

You and I see darkness and
We fall into it
The pitch black pit.
We don't land
Not a thud
No sound.
Continuously falling down.
Softly
We reach the ground.
Our mind has conjured up
Something that is not reality.
We could be anywhere
But instead we are here.
Not too far from home
Only in the dreamland.
Once we start walking forward
Things change around
Us.
We are no longer dreaming.
We have woken up, unable to remember
What it was we have just
Experienced.
But here in the real world we do experience.
Live and learn.
Just not now
For we are in fantasy.
Deep into the night.

I don't talk to him
but I feel something
I feel the blood
rushing through every limb

when I think of it
it just gets stronger
the racing of my heart
bit by bit

his smile just gets me
the way he talks
the way he walks
everything about him
is just magical

I wonder if he can tell
the way I look at him
may I talk to you stranger?
you make me want to yell

maybe I'll find the courage
to go up to you
to speak my mind...
maybe some day...

and

I'll be waiting for the right moment
on that some day