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Shannon Dec 2012
I like to kiss you
on your lips, cheeks, neck;
Anywhere with flesh.
And I like tracing lines
down your bare back,
my fingertips to your skin.
*The way I feel with you
around me, on me, in me
isn't a word.
Shannon May 2013
You said you loved me, lied through your teeth
No persuasion from my end maybe it's not how it seems
How you left me again for the fourth ******* time
But I knew it would happen before all the signs
I don't know if you're confused or just confusing
It's funny now that you're the one who's losing
We could never be the same again
Watch out, watch out for all of your  "friends"
Shannon Sep 2012
**** anxiety,
postponing my sleep and dreams.
Take me away now.
Shannon Nov 2013
You give me your all
All of which I can't return
Though I try so hard
Shannon Nov 2012
I don't need your love
although it would be nice. Your
smile is enough
Shannon Nov 2012
I want to know;

What you love,
or not so much;
and your fears,
as well as dreams.

How you love;
with your body,
and your heart,
synchronized.

Your inner you;
the one no one
else can see.
Please show me.
Shannon Sep 2013
This is water.
Metaphorically speaking of course.
This is really life.
A greater being surrounding your pulse.
This is the day you carried on;
Instead of folding, giving up.
This is what we all have in common.
Despite color, age, or gender.
This is our power and weakness.
No matter how strong or fragile we believe we are.
This is not water.
We are not drowning.
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Shannon Mar 2013
Wake up, new like the day
Follow a routine, accidently made
Every time, do the same.
Write it down, though you can't write
Form word, phrase, sentence, life
Both give and take, love and fight.
Avoid the pain, try not to feel
Live in fantasy, not the real
Make an effort, seal the deal.
Go to bed, alone again
Miss the past, an old friend
More than that, when does this end?
Shannon Feb 2013
Words dance in my mind;
Words that don't mean a thing.
Words run away when I need them most.
Words tease and taunt me.
Words are supposed to be my own;
Words who form my thoughts;
Words I should be in control of.
Words mean everything.
Words mend hearts and break them.
Words pierce the soul, melt the brain.
I don't like this much. I don't know if I'm really thinking of words or something more. Whatever.
Shannon Nov 2013
I know you'll always be here
But what happens when love isn't enough?
Enough to hold together the fragile pieces
Of a heart and mind already so weak.
If I fall apart will you be able to put it back together
Or will I die trying?
Can we really hold us together
Even though I can't hold myself up?
I want to know I'll always be here,
But what happens if this isn't enough?
Shannon Jun 2013
Now I see what I didn't believe,
Though I have conceived
That our world is icy;
Frozen, cold, but hot like hell.
I won't fall in love with falling.
I'll fall in love with me, I, and myself.
'Cause in my own eyes I'm compromised,
Fed so many lies, watched my faith die
And my hopes diminish.
So long before we're finished
But I'm getting skittish
And nervous, feeling worthless.
This seems so worthless, what's the purpose?
The aspiration has been the pursuit of happiness.
We don't need the stress to pass this test
Just take a rest, go out and guess.
Let others assess our intelligence.
We'll play the fool, for they're the best of the best.
Yeah, step right up and place your bets!
Ignore regrets, never forget
To empathize or sympathize, not criticize,
Don't demoralize their strange eyes.
Because you are unaware of what underlies
All their metaphorical reprise.
While some lives are filled with black nights
Others shine bright like star light in dark skies.
A bit of insight into my fright
Proves you can't fight off your demons with a knife.
Not a real knife.
Shannon Nov 2012
You know I'm not one to start an argument.
I'm neither a lover nor a fighter.
I try not to feel anything at all.
I avoid the pain, just get higher.
Take a hit, breathe it in, hold it in.
Exhale.

The world starts to spin in a frenzy.
My heart speeds up, then slows down.
Your arms wrap around me like a castle.
Don't want this to end, won't make a sound.
Stay calm, breathe you in, hold you there.
Let go.

Words cut deep, a finely sharpened blade.
Keep telling myself I don't need it.
Then I run right back to your haven.
Maybe we both want this a little bit,
too much, or too little, not at all?
Oh well.
Shannon Sep 2012
Sometimes I think that I can't take it anymore
It being life of course.
Sometimes I think I'll break down
but only on the inside.
Sometimes I think I'm pathetic
because others have it worse.
Sometimes I think that I am invincible;
But then I realize that I am only human.

That I am only a nucleus
surrounded by the positives and negatives.
That I am only powered by chemical reactions
which I have been told can be fixed.
That I am only one on this planet
graced with a life lived by no other.
But then I realize that I am only human;
I am only a passionately destructive human.
Shannon Dec 2012
Funny how we used to be so close
Now we rarely speak to one another.
Used to pour my insides into you
but they're currently locked away.
In a little box, surrounded by walls.
All of the bridges once paving the way
have been torched, lit ablaze.
The way I sometimes feel,
as though I had never really been there;
Only imaginary.
Shannon Dec 2012
So much time wasted, waiting
For you to come around
Not to let me down.
Only you did, again
And it hurts more now
Than it did before.
Your smile means more
Than a thousand words
And explanations ever will,
Even though those aren't for me
Though you didn't want me
In the first place.
I held space for you,
When you didn't want to be alone.
But now I'm serious.
So you don't want to deal with this?
Would rather leave me behind?
In the dark without light
Without a passing glance?
I'm fading into the distance.
Shannon Nov 2012
You're home now;
I shouldn't be afraid but I am.
I'm not alone now;
That should be relieving,
but I can't calm the nerves
still giving me anxiety.
And I can't end the war
continuing inside of me.
All I want is to relax
just go back to how it used to be
but everything keeps changing
my thoughts won't set me free.
Shannon Apr 2013
I missed you for a long time.
Time changes everything.
Everything gets better.
Better not get too close.
Close the doors in my mind.
Mind my own business.
Business between us is long gone.
Gone a long way since then.
Then again, things happen for a reason.
Shannon Dec 2012
How do you feel?
is it real? Is it wrong?
Like a song, a melody,
in harmony, with you.

How do I feel?
It's surreal, and warm.
Before the storm, or after,
your laughter, starts mine.

What are we?
Or could be? Is this all?
If I fall, how far
until I hit rock bottom?
Shannon Sep 2012
I want love,
but I don't;
And I'm scared,
so I won't.
drop my guard,
until you do;
Let me in.
I wanna know the real you.
Shannon Jan 2013
I don't know how you fill me with words
Still, after being filled with so much hurt
I haven't yet pushed you out of my mind
You cross my thoughts most of the time

From your smile to those eyes
Those lethal brown eyes, deep and dark
The way your fingers grazed the small of my back
An electric sensation through my body

Why I still want you so badly after all this time
Remains a mystery to me
The case is going ice cold, no more fire
Coming from your end, burnt out

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