Now I see what I didn't believe,
Though I have conceived
That our world is icy;
Frozen, cold, but hot like hell.
I won't fall in love with falling.
I'll fall in love with me, I, and myself.
'Cause in my own eyes I'm compromised,
Fed so many lies, watched my faith die
And my hopes diminish.
So long before we're finished
But I'm getting skittish
And nervous, feeling worthless.
This seems so worthless, what's the purpose?
The aspiration has been the pursuit of happiness.
We don't need the stress to pass this test
Just take a rest, go out and guess.
Let others assess our intelligence.
We'll play the fool, for they're the best of the best.
Yeah, step right up and place your bets!
Ignore regrets, never forget
To empathize or sympathize, not criticize,
Don't demoralize their strange eyes.
Because you are unaware of what underlies
All their metaphorical reprise.
While some lives are filled with black nights
Others shine bright like star light in dark skies.
A bit of insight into my fright
Proves you can't fight off your demons with a knife.

You're home now;
I shouldn't be afraid but I am.
I'm not alone now;
That should be relieving,
but I can't calm the nerves
still giving me anxiety.
And I can't end the war
continuing inside of me.
All I want is to relax
just go back to how it used to be
but everything keeps changing
my thoughts won't set me free.

Sometimes I think that I can't take it anymore
It being life of course.
Sometimes I think I'll break down
but only on the inside.
Sometimes I think I'm pathetic
because others have it worse.
Sometimes I think that I am invincible;
But then I realize that I am only human.

That I am only a nucleus
surrounded by the positives and negatives.
That I am only powered by chemical reactions
which I have been told can be fixed.
That I am only one on this planet
graced with a life lived by no other.
But then I realize that I am only human;
I am only a passionately destructive human.

Wake up, new like the day
Follow a routine, accidently made
Every time, do the same.
Write it down, though you can't write
Form word, phrase, sentence, life
Both give and take, love and fight.
Avoid the pain, try not to feel
Live in fantasy, not the real
Make an effort, seal the deal.
Go to bed, alone again
Miss the past, an old friend
More than that, when does this end?

You give me your all
All of which I can't return
Though I try so hard

I don't need your love
although it would be nice. Your
smile is enough

I don't know how you fill me with words
Still, after being filled with so much hurt
I haven't yet pushed you out of my mind
You cross my thoughts most of the time

From your smile to those eyes
Those lethal brown eyes, deep and dark
The way your fingers grazed the small of my back
An electric sensation through my body

Why I still want you so badly after all this time
Remains a mystery to me
The case is going ice cold, no more fire
Coming from your end, burnt out