Shanna Howse: Poems

542 · Jul 2010

Shanna Howse Jul 2010

Spent endless nights together,
No fighting and no screaming.
The nights never end in tears,
Now thoughts like that were dreaming.

She couldn’t trust him anymore,
Or even admit she loved him.
She shouldn’t even care about it
As her eyes tear to the brim.

How did I ever end up here?
I wished to clear my mind…
I wandered away from all I know
Now I’ve left it all alone.

As long as I’m lost and all alone
There’ll be no one left to hurt me.
As far as I’ve gone, I can’t turn back.
Only memories to haunt me…

542 · Sep 2010

Midnight

Shanna Howse Sep 2010

Midnight

Midnight, nothing speaks
Silence coats the air like snow
Everything stands still

© July 30, 2010. Shanna Howse.

sorry it's so short, I've got nothing new to post.

538 · Aug 2010

There for Me

Shanna Howse Aug 2010

There for Me

You were there for me
For as long as I can remember
And even though we disagree
I’m glad we’ve stuck together all these years

You were there for me
When I fell off my bike
And scraped my knee
You helped me out and brought me home safe

You were there for me
When I had my first kiss
When I was so filled with glee
You celebrated and was so happy for me

You were there for me
After my first relationship
When it ended badly
You cheered me up and said it’d be okay

You were there for me
When I got in trouble with my parents
And I could always guarantee
I could stay with you in those cases

You were there for me
On our first vacation
When we got lost out at sea
And I thought we’d be gone forever
(Thankfully it was only a little while)

You were always there for me
And I cannot thank you enough for that
Together, we’re happy as can be
Thank you for being there for me

524 · Jul 2010

3 Haikus

Shanna Howse Jul 2010

3 Haikus

Bugs sing out above
Drowned out by roaring laughter
They wish us goodnight

Moon and stars align
The river shining with light
Waves crash on our feet

Watching shooting stars
Listening to birds singing
A night to think back

508 · Nov 2010

This is Why

Shanna Howse Nov 2010

This is Why

I can’t let myself fall for you,
I can’t bear the consequence
Of losing you again,
Because the pain is just too much each time.

The door closes behind you,
The door is your shield,
That I wish I could knock down,
Because I’m tired of seeing that door.

If I hear your voice,
If I hear your laugh,
I shut it out,
Because I can’t listen anymore.

When you kiss me hello,
When you kiss me goodbye,
I can’t kiss you back,
Because I’ll always want more.

The warmth of your body,
The warmth of your skin on mine,
It sends fire through my blood,
Because I don’t know which way to feel.

Your voice promises only good,
Your voice tells me it will be okay,
Well, your voice lied.
Because it’s not okay, and it’s definitely not good.

507 · Jun 2011

Untitled 2

Shanna Howse Jun 2011

Untitled 2

As if it was more romantic saying goodbye at the beach,
Rather than in the alleyway where we used to meet,
Then we must be mistaken,
For wherever the atmosphere surrounding these words
Doesn’t make it hurt any less.

Granting all the wonderful memories that will never bid farewell,
Felt so much more like a burden than a release,
When will this pain ever cease and disappear?
They will live on in these deserted streets
And float away in the night sky forever.

Those two words seem so plain and tiny
We could’ve wrote a novel to leave this where it ended
Making time tick on and on and on
So that maybe, just maybe, it wouldn’t ever need to end,
And we wouldn’t walk away.

June 7, 2011 © Shanna Howse

Though in a completely happy point in my life, I was listening to a dark playlist and I needed to throw something on here, so here it is.

497 · Jul 2010

In The Rain

Shanna Howse Jul 2010

In The Rain

The rain starts to pour
I call out over the roar
As you turn your back away
And the sky turns grey

My heart starts to race
You walk away slow with grace
Give up, I think and sigh
I feel miserable as the sky

I can’t think what I miss most;
Your sense of remorse,
Or the good days we spent
Oh, where have they went?

I remember the fun
The stuff we’d done
I remember those days
As if they were yesterday

There was something there
When you used to care
I try to hold onto that
My grasp runs flat

These memories will stay here
In my mind they won’t disappear
I couldn’t say the same for you
In your mind all will subdue

But for now I’m left in pieces
The feeling of happiness decreases
Now all I feel is pain
Now I cry in the rain.

485 · Jul 2010

Her

Shanna Howse Jul 2010

Her

Under her spell,
You have changed for good,
Like I always knew you would.
So here I am, wishing you farewell.

Goodbye the person you once were.
You were a person of your own,
Unique, the man I’ve always known.
And it’s all changed because of her.

Goodbye my very good friend,
The one I knew the best,
The one I once possessed.
At least now you won’t need to pretend.

What happened to what you said?
The story you always stood by?
The story you now deny?
Hope that it haunts your head.

It was her all along,
Was it not?
I never had the thought,
The idea seemed too wrong.

She was the right one I guess,
You and her went along too well,
And on those nights we would yell,
You went to her to confess.

So please answer me this,
What made you decide to finally leave?
For all these late nights I grieve,
For you I’ll always miss.

But I hope everything turns out,
And I hope you have fun with her,
And our memories I’ll inter,
Because you I can go without.

462 · Jul 2010

You & Me

Shanna Howse Jul 2010

You & Me

Call me baby,
Take me away,
Someday maybe
We can be alone.

Sing me a song,
Play your guitar,
Stay up all night,
Underneath the stars.

Head on your chest,
Dancing up close,
I feel my best
When I’m with you, babe.

And you were, boy,
My only dream,
Now to enjoy;
You’re mine forever.

You’re in my heart;
I love you so,
Never to part;
Never let this go.

Here together,
The sweet silence
Filled with romance,
We’ll lay, watch those stars.

391 · Jul 2010

Because of You

Shanna Howse Jul 2010

Because of You

Just leave here now
Go far away
Forget all this
There's just too much to say

Remember when
We had something
A spark, like lust
Now it’s nothing

Everyone sees
But you don’t see
Why did I try?
When you'd just snap at me

You’ll go for good
Two months from now
I’ll stay shattered
Feelings dissipate somehow.

— The End —