It’s cold and dark here
The fog is just starting to settle in
The moonlight filtering through the clouds
Behind the trees lurks something eerie

It’s completely dark;
I cannot see anything in front of me
Yet I am not afraid
Because I know these surroundings so well

I hear a wolf cry off in the distance
That’s my queue to leave
But I cannot say goodbye again
It’s too hard to leave you after you left the first time.

I wipe the tears from my eyes
Take a deep breath,
Holding a sob in my throat
And stand up.

I cannot kiss you goodbye,
I cannot hug you and feel you against my skin,
I cannot hear your voice or see your smile,
I cannot see the sparkle in your eyes

I’ll leave you with this rose
This one is pink and soft; you like these best
It adds a little bit of color
Sitting atop your grave

So I’ll drive off now
Go home and go to sleep
The routine I’ve followed since that day
I love you, I’ll be back tomorrow morning.

I hate hearing your name,
Seeing your face,
Listening to your voice,

I hate asking how you are,
What you’re up to nowadays,
Pretending I even care anymore,

I hate hearing about the things you make,
Your accomplishments and ambitions,
About all of your favorite things to do,

I hate making small talk with you,
That you keep dead conversations going,
Filling the silences I don’t want to fill,

I hate how you think my friends are yours,
That they like you more than me,
That you’re winning them over,

I hate that you talk like I never existed,
Like we never shared a history,
Like you never loved me at all,

I hate that I miss that part of you
The part that I never could hate
Even though after everything, I should.

Look in the mirror
And staring back at me
Is a reflection of a lonely girl
An empty girl only I can see

Too thin, fragile and petite
She’s hiding herself away
From everything around her
Pretending she’s okay

Across her face is exhaustion
Hiding in her eyes are her fears
Etched in her wrist is pain
She’s weaker than she appears

She’s pleading for help
Screaming out loud
But no one can see her
She’s invisible in a crowd

Broken and shattered
Her skin is so hollow
There’s nothing left to her
Drowning in sorrow

Destined to leave this world
She needs to find a way out
She couldn’t make a difference
The world could do without

She has nothing left;
No sanity left to corrupt
She holds razor to vein
Feels the wave of darkness erupt