When I ponder what could've been, the ache cuts deep within
A lingering sorrow that refuses to fade, a heart that's lost its way
I search for answers, night and day, trying to place the blame
Is it you, is it me, or the judgment of outside eyes looking in?

When memories of us resurface, I'm overwhelmed with grief
A tidal wave of tears, a longing that brings me to my knees
My desire for you is all-consuming, a flame that burns so bright
Yet, I fear it's a danger, a risk that's not worth the fight

Perhaps it's just my own demons, my complicated, messy life
A reality that might drive you away, leaving me to face the strife
I'm the one who made mistakes, who let our love slip away
But am I the only one to blame, or just a fragment of a love that's lost its way?

Can our love be rekindled, or is it lost forevermore?
Is there still a chance for us, or am I longing for something that's no more?
My heart beats selfishly, yearning only for our love's revival

You're always on my mind, for reasons yet to be revealed
A constant presence that I've grown accustomed to, a love that still feels like home
I miss the gentle touch of your lips, the warmth of your loving gaze
Longing to be with you again, to rekindle our love's fading blaze

I regret not spending every moment with you, not cherishing our time
Wondering if you still belong to me, or if your heart now beats to a different harmony

In youthful fear, I hesitated
A step unspoken, love unresolved, fate created
A path unwinding, choices made
Leaving me with longing, heartache displayed

You said I didn't really love you because I didn't take that step
But my heart knew better, my love for you did creep
Through every moment, every tear, every sigh
My love for you remained, never to die

Time went by, and now I'm left to grieve
For what could've been, for what we used to breathe
I wish I could turn back the hands of time
To make different choices, to re-align

But life doesn't work that way, it keeps on moving fast
Leaving me with memories, and a love that will forever last
Talking to you brings me joy, a feeling so pure and true
I miss you, I miss us, I miss me and you

When darkness falls, and fears arise
A glimmer shines, beyond the skies
A light that beckons, like a guiding star
Leading us forward, near and far

In every storm, a rainbow's grace
A promise kept, a smile on our face
For every wound, a healing balm
A chance to rise, to stand tall and calm

Like trees that bend, but never break
We too can flex, and our strength make
In every test, a chance to grow
A story written, as our spirit glows

So let us hold, to hope's sweet hand
And walk together, in this promised land
Where love and joy, forever reign
And our hearts sing, with a sweet refrain

It was in December, the most beautiful time of the year
He reached for my hand as he twirled me around
My dress spin so delicately,i felt like a princess
We dance under the open sky filled with stars
As he asked me a question.....

I want to be the one you think about in the mornings

I want to be the one you think about all day long

I want to be the one you make future plans with

I want to be the one you ask for their hand

I want to be your everything

I want to be the one

They say I should take what I get, but what if I have nothing?   They say be patient and stop worrying but I don't see myself being happy any time soon
They say you can't force someone to love you but how do you know if someone loves you or even getting there?
They say time is the master yet to me I am right where I started and somehow I feel as if I never started at all
I would compare my life to a roller coaster but sadly I have never been on one. So I'm back to where I started not only confused but twice as I was before
They never told me love could be so confusing yet they were there to point fingers when I got it wrong
They say that I am a saint, that I am pretending but they can't  see the fact that they are filled with lies
Never stop to ask why I'm confused, never stopped to ask if I'm okay. Nice, that's like you're a werewolf because you're only nice on a full moon. Funny, now that's something you are so funny that I don't even know when your being real
They say I should take it slow that they're giving me a second chance, I guess this is was being a submissive feels like.....