Why words hurt.
Sharper than swords
Faster than bullets
Deadlier than poison

How to make it worst.
Your 'sword' stabbed my wound
One bullet wasn't enough
Your poisoned me when I was sick.

A walking contradiction
To myself, and to me.
I find loss in victory
I seek for darkness in the light
I long for friends to leave me

All I want to be,

A tragic hero

I'm ignorant, shameless, and dense
I can't understand what you don't say
Sometimes I don't make sense
And I end up missing you everyday

I'm telling you I'm not okay
"Don't leave me, I need you"
How many times do I have to say?
Now, I don't know what to do

If I apologize am I forgiven?
Your words stabbed me
To you I'll always listen
You can **** me, can't you see?

I sit on a dark corner
darkness creeps on me
no that's not it
it's just my anxiety kicking in
my hollow chest
shallow breathing
holding my head
to keep me from looking
the reality that might come
when I see you leaving
I bite my tongue
to keep me from screaming
with muffled breaths
I cry my feelings

it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts

I want you to stay
don't leave
comfort me, ask me, talk to me
tell me; You'd never leave me

Look at me
what do you see?
A boy desperate for you?
Always looking for you.

Now look at him
What do you see?
Ain't he happy?
So why aren't you?

I'll look at you
the way you look at him
the two of us aren't smiling
and in the end we're both lying

So near yet so far
5cm of space
because of the silence
it keeps us apart

I desperately yearn for you
your heart
your soul
your touch

I won't lie
its the truth
but what I want most
is a bit if your time