Dear Lord,

With my whole heart I ask
That you look after my friends
Guide them in troubles
Lead them when lost
Give them your ear
When they just need to talk

Lend them a hand
When they’ve nowhere to turn
Show them a new road
When a bridge has been burned

Teach them to smile
When everything seems bad
And show them there is happiness
After all that seems sad

Dear Lord,
This is my prayer
I hope that every word you can hear
This message is from my heart
For my friends are so dear

Deep inside i yearn,
for something thick and hard
my finger too short
can you help?
  Rip my tightness apart,
give me the healing ointment
My ***** awaits,
sick of being *****
can you help?
  Already wet from from the thoughts,
wide i lay here on my bed,
all i want is a rod
bang me til i cry,
will you try?
Man,I'm #*****....

You put me in restraints
the cold medal felt good on my hot flesh
Arms secure behind my back patiently waiting for your attack
I know you will rip my fish net stockings off me very soon
My hands bound and out of the way so I can't stop you
Push me down on the bed shove my face into the pillow
**** me strong and hard deep and long make me cry out Put your **** in my
face slap me with it I love it do it again I can taste me on you how sweet we taste together Your **** filling my
cheek you forcefully slap the outside of my face The stinging feeling
soon goes numb you like how it feels on your **** Gripping my face
like a vise you pump all your *** into my throat

They always tell you be yourself
But what if that self they ask you to be
Is selfish and conniving
Then what, Will you still preach ??
More importantly would you even like the person you see.
But isn't it also true, they said one should never care
What other people may have to say
Do what makes you happy, they say never once asking
What is it that makes said person happy.
So why be displeased, when all they did was be themselves
They say our life experiences mold us into who we need to be
Is that really true?
You created the monster to which you see
Isn't it only right that you deal with it accordingly
I'm one of those persons who believe everything happens for a reason
So sooner her later the reason will reveal it's self
Makes no sense questioning why
Enjoy the pain after all it won't last very long.
A time will come when you'll be able to laugh at it all

Falling out of my chest
That's the way my heart feels
Pulled in every which direction
Uncertain of you and what you feel
I know you'll find it hard to believe
But that's how messed up my mind has become
Everything you say
She comes like a snake in my ear with her questions
Placing doubts
She always seem to find some hidden agendas
Saying there is always more to what meet the eye
Look with your third eyes
Saying maybe not now but further down the road
So why not end it now
Save yourself the pain
I know u think I don't care but all I care is about you my dear.
Because when you love you love with too much of you
And it takes way too much away from you...
Why wait she ask, really what's the point
And I couldn't find an answer.
But I could see her point
Your going around in circles
And we are not design for such torture
Do u really want me being bitter???

She's twenty, young and carefree
She's shy or maybe that's what she wants you to believe
Such a loving soul, has no remembrance of the lesson life showed
She believes love is all that matters
And that happy endings actually do come true
But I think she's learning
Because her heart seems to be yearning
Or maybe it was the cruel awakening
From believing in  lil girls fantasies
There is no Prince Charming
Being loyal don't get you anywhere
Nothing more than a blank ******* stare
From a guy who said he would be there
Saying this isn't going anywhere
By now am sure you guess who I am
The one who sees...
I don't believe in falling in love
I've seen what it does
I believing in giving in to those devilish desires
I believe in me first, yes I'm selfish
I have two sides that's not
So I need to be bad and not listen to reasoning
So long as its what I want to do
****! The consequences
That's what everyone else does
Isn't it
Give a ******* to those who gave a ****
So one **** I give not
Yes there's more to me but from what I've seen
There isn't anyone worthy to be shown
So I gladly play the roll of that cold *****.

                       To be continued....

I always said I never understood
human nature and why we are
as we are and as we will be
and as we always have been.

I always said I was never like the rest
I knew I wasn't perfect but I was not
quite as
selfish or as
stupid or as
indecisive or as
foolish.

But now I see how I wanted you
when you were no longer mine to have
and I missed you when you were gone
and I let go of you when you were holding on to me
and I want you more than ever now that
you no longer want me at all.

and only now do I realize,
much to my dismay
that I
am
human nature.