Life is too short
people have dreams
I have dreams
and I really want to live them
I keep thinking
like when I'm writing a poem
I'm already thinking of the next one
when I lie down on my bed
I organize my thoughts
plan the next day and try to sleep
Even when i'm sleeping I think
what I'm going to do next in my life
and when I'm thinking
I mumble in my sleep
"mom,breakfast please"
which is silly
everything rushes through my brain
it's like a traffic jam up there!!
It's really stressful
I'm always planning ahead
not living in the moment
like if I'm going to party
I think"where will we go next?'
and I love to go from one place to another
I'm a modern Bedouin!!
there are so many ideas in my head
ideas i want to execute
show the world
make my family proud
I want to make a change
I want people to live their lives to the fullest
not throw it away
and I'm not saying this to impress people
to pretend so that people say"WOW,this guy is serious"
I mean what I say
and i don't get people's hopes up
just so that i can let them down
that'd be wrong
there's so much to do in the world if we open our eyes
we might see what needs to be done
rather than following a path which isn't yours.

"O Allah!
please show me a path
a path of ease
a path of joy
forgive me if I have sinned
stop punishing my family if I have sinned
show some mercy towards us
change our future
my parents can't eat
instead they give their food to my 8 siblings and me
so that we won't starve
so that we won't die
their face can't even be called a face
they look like thin sticks
bless us with something
please answer my prayers
so that we can smile
I can't remember the last time we smiled
I can't remember because there is always a tensed look
on everyone's face
please show us the the path
to happiness
to togetherness
I pray to You
because i believe
I believe that we will find a solution
with the help You will give us
give us an opportunity
to make our lives better
Amen"
This prayer is said by all those
who can't
feed their children
who can't support their pare\nts
who can't help their relative in their time of need
they have no choice but to pray
but WE have a choice
by helping them
relieving them from their pain
letting them breathe
loosening the noose that is around their necks
so tight around their necks
not letting them breathe
not letting them be happy

When i hear
the sound of laughter
when i make someone laugh
I feel proud
like I accomplished something
which is weird
because I don't think many people
feel proud by making someone laugh!!
it's a wonderful feeling
to be surrounded by happy people
they say
"laughter is the best medicine"
and they're right
it really is
it can relieve someone from their pain
erase all the sadness
help make new,better,happier memories
we all need a bit of laughter in our lives
because the stress is burdening us
it's like a noose around our necks
and with the help of laughter
it can be loosened

They always promise
but never fulfill
they act like everything is okay
after letting you down
again and again
and then expect you
to be happy
to not frown
and destroy the mood
but if they wanted that
they shouldn't have let me down
so I wouldn't have also
and then i can be happy
and grateful
but you can't expect me
to always understand
you guys also need to understand
If you were promised something
and didn't get
I know you'd be bummed
same is the case with me
but you just don't understand
you never understand

Once I went to live in another country
study in an another school
a huge school
i made many friends
there were a lot of nice teachers
but one day when i was waiting for my ride
i saw
a huge pumpkin
walking out of the school
he had warts on his face
covered with his maroon beard
he was wearing a wig clearly
because the wind was blowing hard
and i could see his bald head
when the wig kissed his cheeks
his hands were pink and sweaty
and he was wearing clothes of the 7th century
when he spoke on the phone
he spat
and rivers of spit
traveled down his shirt
and the shirt was the funniest piece of clothing on him
it looked like he had tied a curtain around him
and pinned it with safety pins
the buttons were about to fly
they couldn't hold on
even though he was wearing a shirt which was XXXXXXXXXXL
on the back of his pants there was ****
bird **** to be specific
and when his car came
it took him 8 minutes easy
just to fit in the car
and the driver drove slow
because the car could've tipped
because of his weight
the next day
i asked my teacher who was that hideous
ugly looking man that went in a black Mercedes yesterday
she looked at me in shock and said
"that's the principal my boy!!"
and suddenly I turned red
just like the pants he was wearing!!

Last fall we went to a funeral
it was a terrible scene
none of the people there
were sad
were mourning their loss
they were happy
they were acting as if
nothing had happened
then i thought
how long do i have?
i don't want to go
what if i haven't done enough good things
I don't want to go to hell
the fear inside of me
makes me fear death
makes me fear my grave
makes me pray for forgiveness
but what if i haven't prayed enough?
what if i have sinned?
I don't want to die
why does the world have to be so cruel
why can't everyone live forever
if someone dies
it makes other people's lives difficult
but what can we do?
we'll just have to wait
wait for the end
waiting to reach the finish line
of the race called life
i wish there was something in our way
to stop us from aging
to stop us from dying
to stop us from reaching the finish line

was so happy
my whole life ahead of me
I had so much to do
so much to see
I barely got out of my shell
and explored
and suddenly
I got the news
that i was about to die
I stopped listening
when words like cancer and death
started coming out of the doctors mouth
i couldn't believe
i wouldn't believe
but I had to
i could see inside my soul
and search the happy days
the sad days
but all i found was death
my soul was about to be released
from the cage
I would've had to leave
my family
my friends
my world
and leave everyone in pain
to mourn
but then forget me
to make room for more sorrow