Years blurred, surpassed
Suppressed
Beneath me now
What an incredible mess
This day to day has become

I'll work, rest, witness your soul drifting
Rinse and repeat, sanity sifting
This cycle is psychotic
Burden on my Psyche

My brain's become estranged
Twisted
Deranged

Hold my head in my hands
Silent tears down my cheek
& you still don't see
What you're doing to me
What I do to myself

Another needle in your arm
Another secret I will harbour
Another burden I'm currently
Incapable of suppressing

Sweet underlying tones
In that decietfully soft voice
What's really left to say
When you leave me with
No choice?

So hopelessly helpless
Its near impossible to comprehend
Words butchered by slurrs
You can lie but can't pretend

I see right through
But ignorance is truly bliss
When you hold me in your arms
Gift me another heart wrenching kiss

You are wasting away
This life (lie) is so exhausting

I can only bend so far
Until I break completely
So what else is left to say
Someday these years  will be beneath me

New days can't supress the years
lessons learned
Another page to
Turn

The other cheek
Chapters & passages
To burn

Throwing it all away
In pursuit of
Better days

But living with the daunting risk
Of reliving the pain

Sometimes old scars
Can bleed
exposing the Psyche
Dissecting the past

Despite what I thought
Was finally behind me

Thoughts become unhinged
Its all downhill from here
May as well turn up the stereo
And crack another beer

Cause life's a constant *****
Some will slip, and some
Will choke
Its up to you
To persevere

grin and bare
Through adverse years

The past is gone
The time is now
To pick up the pieces
And allow yourself
To forgive
yourself

Our little encounter
Keeps crossing my mind
I try to push thoughts away
And I don't know why

You're under my skin now

Keep thinking about
That fire in your eyes
The sensual aggression in your arms
As they manipulated my body
From side to side

Your breath heavy and hot
In my ear
Succulent lips
Fused into mine
Wordlessly begging for more
with each kiss

And your intuitive hands
Exploring me
In all the right places
As I put my back in a slow grind
And you make those **** faces
Looking up at me

Enticing goosebumps
Escalating towards ecstasy
With each ****** and each pump

Of those hips
My legs split around them
Our bodies slick and unrelenting

Bending to your will
You make me feel like
My body is on vibrate
Any wrong you want done right

I'd invite you between the sheets with me again
Any day and or night